My third grandparent died today.
And then there was one - but at least I still have my parents and my grandmother on my father's side.
You know I never met Grandma lambert - my mom made a decision (well and Grandma made one too) to never see her family again.
I'm not saddened in a "traditional" way.
I don't mourn her death - as if I lost a friend or a parent or even a being - she was a voice at best - over the phone.
But there is something unnerving about a generation dying off - about all of the experienced leaving. I'll never know what it was like for her to grow up in seattle - or to build a dysfunctional family in 1950s California.
it's as if my past is losing a face but gaining statistical significance.
Strange. I can't even remember her first name.
it's as if she vanished from life all together - and yet she took 90 years of human experience to somewhere else.
How do you quantify that? how can you fold up nearly a century of time into an urn?
Well - I hope everyone is enjoying a beautiful Saturday afternoon.
And then there was one - but at least I still have my parents and my grandmother on my father's side.
You know I never met Grandma lambert - my mom made a decision (well and Grandma made one too) to never see her family again.
I'm not saddened in a "traditional" way.
I don't mourn her death - as if I lost a friend or a parent or even a being - she was a voice at best - over the phone.
But there is something unnerving about a generation dying off - about all of the experienced leaving. I'll never know what it was like for her to grow up in seattle - or to build a dysfunctional family in 1950s California.
it's as if my past is losing a face but gaining statistical significance.
Strange. I can't even remember her first name.
it's as if she vanished from life all together - and yet she took 90 years of human experience to somewhere else.
How do you quantify that? how can you fold up nearly a century of time into an urn?
Well - I hope everyone is enjoying a beautiful Saturday afternoon.
i will come see you soon fo sho!
and im so sorry to hear about your grams.. i felt kinda the same way when a kid i grew up with my whole life died suddenly at 21.. basically no one has a clue how or why.. but considering what a good and wholesome person he was it's totally fucked up and makes you just realize how disgusting and unfair both life and death are.