himadhaman

i am her roommate, friend, confidant, and erstwhile lover. but i don't get to sleep with her.

nothing ruins my day, right there at the beginning, than waking up and hearing someone else in her bed. it doesn't bother me to wake up and not find her there in my bed anymore, but it kills me to wake up and hear someone else do it.

we've had our issues, and they're definately winding down towards something resembling a civil relationship again, but i think that will always be there between us. i can't forgive her for doing this in front of me, and she can't forgive me for not letting her do what she wants in her own home.

i don't get up early becuase i like waking up early. i get up early so i can get out of the house before they wake up, so i can pretend theres no on in there with her, or that maybe they aren't even home. ignorance is bliss, and i'm telling you its true.