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himadhaman

San Francisco

Member Since 2004

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i don't even know what to say. i'm as crazy as any two people i know. you never think you're batshit. go figure. fuck. oh well.

in other news i've been ordered by cronies from high school to find good bars to take them to. i have pretended that i know LOTS of great places. this is a lie. help me.

girlrobot:

yeah, I wish you would have warned me of the when I first moved in. I used to sleep with them both, now I only sleep with one of them. and it has to be when the other one isn't around or she gets jealous. fucking suck.

Jan 6, 2005

himadhaman:

I wouldn't mind so much that we dont sleep together any more, except that she brings her new boyfriend over most every night, and i have to wake up hearing them waking up.

Jan 7, 2005

ahh new years.

it took me 14 hours of driving, with a stay in a cheap motel in the middle, to get to tahoe. when i got there i did what i do best on new years. i drank. i was three deep by the time we went to dinner, and three more by the end. i recall champagne being poured, and i recall drinking...
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abia:

Well I hope it was fun

Jan 2, 2005

himadhaman:

for the most part it was fun, except for that part in the middle of the night were i got pissed off and did some drunk dialing. oh well.

Jan 2, 2005

Badly in need of alcohol, i acquired the aid of my friend sarah tonight and we hit the booze. in the process of the drinking, i disclosed to her this whole sordid roommate affair.

its comforting to know other people think that you're right, but honestly it doesn't do me any good to know that other people agree she's batshit. i need her to realize...
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coco:

new years is overrated. period. i hope you have some fun, though. go make snow angels for me!

Dec 29, 2004

himadhaman:

hahahaha. duly noted. i will make a snow angel and when people ask why the hell i'm flailing around in the snow i will tell them a hot girl told me to do it and they will all nod and go "ohhh ok".

Dec 29, 2004

i really... really... need a life

like. damn. i think i'd be much less a whiny bitch if i just got out of the house more often. at the very least drinking with other people would prolly be good for me.

olsen:

yick. roommate drama

Dec 29, 2004

"its not that i haven't learned from my mistakes, its that i keep making new ones, and i can't get over the old ones"

every now and then the truth comes out and i surprise myself.

oh you brain. you nasty bastard. you really get your jollies with a dream like that don't you?

coco:

I had one of those dreams last night too. Bah.

Dec 27, 2004

i came home tonight to what?
a little calm? just hanging out with old friends? no. no. i got to hear a lot of rumors about my ex girlfriend being hit on by some dipshit friend of mine.

i swear to god. it never ends.

i realized, i don't remember when, that my default mode, mood, is not happy. it isn't sad. theres should be a dash in there maybe. as in not-happy. i suppose people will say "well duh kid, thats pretty normal". yeah well fuck you anyone who already thought that. i absolutely refute the notion that i don't have a right to want to wake up and...
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coco:

sometimes i'm haunted by similar thoughts. most times, i wake up in the morning and they're just a haze, a half-forgotten notion.

sometimes, you can't shake them.

Dec 15, 2004

for the last three nights in a row i've had dreams about my last (real) girlfriend, who dumped me a year and a half ago now. i think this is my stupid brains way of trying to get me away from being pissy about my living situation, but i can't say i'm very grateful. as if i didn't spend enough time on this subject already,...
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its as if the cigarette followed me home, crawled up my face while i wasn't pay attention, then spontaneously combusted.

i can't say i'm not kinda glad tho, however it got there.

i was reading my own journal, and realized i almost always post something unhappy.

i was gonna try and buck that trend, but now its 1 am and i'm tired and i don't have it in me.

looking back, i guess it makes sense then that i haven't been saying things trivial and amusing. i've been tired a lot lately.

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