It's becoming more and more obvious that me being a 24 year old who hasn't had her first kiss let alone had sex is such a taboo. When people find out they are shocked and then I feel ashamed and embarrassed. I am always left out of friends conversations because I haven't had experience. It makes me feel like I am unattractive because nobody has felt like I was worth a kiss. I spent the day with my cousin and I just felt like I was a child because of this. Now that I'm really into someone across the country that I can't be with in person because of money issues at the moment I can't do anything now because I would feel guilty. Which leads me back to my insecurity that maybe since I've never been with anyone why would he want me?
I'm sorry I really have no other place to talk about this. Now that I reread this I feel like a teenager typed this not a 24 year old.
