One day. I'm going to bawl my eyes out.
Things ended for good with the guy I complained about for a while now. Over a joke. Friends and I tagging pictures on facebook of me, that weren't me, annnnnd apparently that was the worst thing I could have ever done.
Im happy, because its finally over, I can move on. He didn't want to be with me. Now I don't have to wonder.
I know I care, but I can't react. With everything going on with my sister, i just blow up on everyone for even thinking anything else could be more significant to me right now.
One day I will realize what happened.
Or I'll stop telling myself what a great guy he was despite the facts. i knew he wouldn't stick around. there's always been another girl, always would be. eventually one would matter to him in a way i couldn't.
Which ever comes first. I haven't shed a tear. I feel like I want too. I have the sinking feeling in the chest. but that's about it.
I was a joke to him.
he was a joke to my friends and i.
equaled out.
but doesn't change the fact that i have emotions that i cant always control.
Things ended for good with the guy I complained about for a while now. Over a joke. Friends and I tagging pictures on facebook of me, that weren't me, annnnnd apparently that was the worst thing I could have ever done.
Im happy, because its finally over, I can move on. He didn't want to be with me. Now I don't have to wonder.
I know I care, but I can't react. With everything going on with my sister, i just blow up on everyone for even thinking anything else could be more significant to me right now.
One day I will realize what happened.
Or I'll stop telling myself what a great guy he was despite the facts. i knew he wouldn't stick around. there's always been another girl, always would be. eventually one would matter to him in a way i couldn't.
Which ever comes first. I haven't shed a tear. I feel like I want too. I have the sinking feeling in the chest. but that's about it.
I was a joke to him.
he was a joke to my friends and i.
equaled out.
but doesn't change the fact that i have emotions that i cant always control.
Despite not knowing you all that well, I am glad he's good and gone. Unfortunately, we can't explain how we get so invested in the wrong folks sometimes. Yet I think you'll be looking back at this moment later thinking "Holy SHIT, that was close!"