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Not for vanity
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So, that thing below happened tonight.

I don't know what I should make of myself.
I do love her but... I need more from her.
It's a large deal.
I'm not the hardest person in the world to get on with. complicated, but if I don't believe her eyes how can I look after myself?
And if I am not well then well, I am the centre of the universe, so nothing is well.

Understand?
I need to be feeling elated. That's what is meant to happen. And political lectures shouldn't be a substitute for what love is. And if love isn't involved then fun must be.
Our hearts are too heavy.
Oscar Wilde wrote a childrens story didn't he?


I think I know what my philosophical position is. I am an 'Information Environmentalist', an existentialist who likes to meditate, some kind of socialist, and I have to say, just incase 'existentialist' doesn't cover it, I would kill nazis.



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1. I don't think tht i can watch this thing between us crumble @ some point in the future because i care about u,love u too much.I think we should break up,don't u?

2. And i'm in pain. Maybe we have each other all wrong. I'm glad that you are with Jon. I'm sorry but this is not right.

3. Alix lets.. Sleep on this. As is. x i hope this finds you soon.

4. Fuck. If u want to say something to me tonight of couse i wont mind

4i. "I think that we should meet and talk about this tomorrow"

5. The morning light will be imperative. Ten thirty at the top of the stairwell in the Talbot St car park. I don't want you to be late. x


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