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Sorry it feels like I spent the whole of yesterday fighting with my girlfriend. And I rediscovered a tendency to cry. It wasn't at all fun and the 'Sea Symphony' that we saw last night wasn't inspiring, neither were the shanties or the roused rendition of 'Rule Britannia' that they played before the interval. We caught the bus back to my house but she wouldn't stay and we didn't leave the kitchen, passed the hall with the piano pushed against the stairs where the single male mouse hides.

I have deleted a section describing the moment in an argument when you realise that your partner is not going to say what you want them to say that day.

The best part of today: smelt her breath once on my breath as it ricocheted off my monitor. I walked out of my bathroom, found Rocky had cleaned herself, probably spending the entire morning grooming and most of the night, so that she was shiny again and soft under my clean hands. That was yesterday.

So this thing that I am doing, it will be hard work but Im already speaking better and my moods are more stable, even yesterday when I moped in the bath for an hour doing nothing, stable. Like always (I rarely bath like that). And I did pass a shout between the terracotta tiles and kitchen units when I said, Im making you wait, (she was joking) in my head afterwards.


[Edited on Nov 14, 2004 4:13PM]

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