hickuphelpline

There has been a delay in the scheduled programming due to unforeseen trips to the Chestnut Tree taking longer than I thought and on account of not getting a drink when I was in the pub. Damn these prerequisites!

i smoke weed occationally.



How can I possibly express here how I feel about someone I know being on an hourly suicide watch in hospital? How can I get these feelings of guilt out of me without talking to a psychologist? I'm watching to see a councellor of some description but it's taking longer than I ever would have thought just to get a second appointment. I hate this. Who else can I talk to it about? Maybe Alix will come for a walk this evening but I've catagorised myself as being a strong person when I'm with her. I feel so false but I wont allow myself to be as crumpled as I feel when we're together, yet. I should definitely sign on with about three councellors, each for each problem.

I wish I could just get on with it and hate my mother but the memes wont let me.