heyletsgo

Well tonight was fun...... saw my grandad in hospital! the best of it is I only found out he was in hospital yesterday when i was asked if i wanted to go and visit him!!! My family sucks!!! They tell me nothing, it was 6 months after my nan died when i finally got told that she died of bowel cancer! 6 fuckin' months!!! It actually hurts me quite alot that non of my family seem preparred to tell me anything at all.

Im really not looking forward to work tomorrow, for the fact that I saw my grandad in hospital looking not so good, so im not in the mood to have to be polite to dirty fuckin chavs that would happily rob us blind if they had enough chances!!!

Its not all bad I guess cause my grandad isnt on deaths door he only went in for an operation on his knee, but it still really is upsetting to see somebody I care so much about lying in a hospital bed! Its not like i havent seen it before, I mean my dad is in and out of hospital with his chrones disease. 4 times in 10 years if im not mistaken!!! It just really quite upsets me to know/feel that i may have to go to another funeral in the near future! Hurt, scared, and emotional is how i think i'd describe myself at the moment!!! I NEED A SHOULDER TO CRY ON! (if i do cry it would be the first time in 3/4 years though!!!! a lot of feeling are stored up in me at the moment!!!)