Well yesterday sucked....
My soon-to-be-ex-wife, that I still have strong feelings for, sat in my appartment and lied to me over and over to try to get my car. I couldnt give it to her so I ended up taking her to her dads.
She later called me, cause Im a good friend that doesnt hurt her, to tell me the MAN SHE FELL IN LOVE WITH, FUCKED, AND THE MAN THAT PROPOSSED TO HER ON DEPLOYMENT, is ignoring her. He went back to HIS wife of 10 years! Part of me laughs but it is so hard to be lied to and then find out this. I was in the Marines so I know what it is like on deployment. Everyone is trying to get some ass. But part of me wants to beat his ass for taking advantage of her. Shit we're not even filled yet. ANOTHER MAN FUCKED MY WIFE AND TOLD HER HE LOVED HER!! How could she not see through this? How could she ask me for advice about this???
I worried myself sick over her being deployed to Iraq. I loved her and treated her like she was everything. Sure I had MY mistakes, but I would have done anything to try to fix it. I am so sick of getting shit on!!!!
She admitted that she had fucked him in every port and even on the ship. And she admitted she was in love with him WHEN she told me we should just be friends, then she fucked him....
It hurts, it hurts bad. Ive never felt so alone and betrayed in my life.
Ive found the perfect song...
"Alone I Break"
Pick me up
been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
I'll stop it some how
I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone
Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Shut me off
I am ready,
Heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be on my own
I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone
Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm running from?
is there nothing more to come? (am I Gunna leave this place?)
Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take it's place?
Am I going to leave this race? (Am I going to leave this race?)
I guess god's up in this place?
what is it that I've become?
is there something more to come? (more to come)
Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
My soon-to-be-ex-wife, that I still have strong feelings for, sat in my appartment and lied to me over and over to try to get my car. I couldnt give it to her so I ended up taking her to her dads.
She later called me, cause Im a good friend that doesnt hurt her, to tell me the MAN SHE FELL IN LOVE WITH, FUCKED, AND THE MAN THAT PROPOSSED TO HER ON DEPLOYMENT, is ignoring her. He went back to HIS wife of 10 years! Part of me laughs but it is so hard to be lied to and then find out this. I was in the Marines so I know what it is like on deployment. Everyone is trying to get some ass. But part of me wants to beat his ass for taking advantage of her. Shit we're not even filled yet. ANOTHER MAN FUCKED MY WIFE AND TOLD HER HE LOVED HER!! How could she not see through this? How could she ask me for advice about this???
I worried myself sick over her being deployed to Iraq. I loved her and treated her like she was everything. Sure I had MY mistakes, but I would have done anything to try to fix it. I am so sick of getting shit on!!!!
She admitted that she had fucked him in every port and even on the ship. And she admitted she was in love with him WHEN she told me we should just be friends, then she fucked him....
It hurts, it hurts bad. Ive never felt so alone and betrayed in my life.
Ive found the perfect song...
"Alone I Break"
Pick me up
been bleeding too long
Right here, right now
I'll stop it some how
I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone
Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Shut me off
I am ready,
Heart stops
I stand alone
Can't be on my own
I will make it go away
can't be here no more
Seems this is the only way
I will soon be gone
these feelings will be gone
these feelings will be gone
Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
Am I going to leave this place?
What is it I'm running from?
is there nothing more to come? (am I Gunna leave this place?)
Is it always black in space?
Am I going to take it's place?
Am I going to leave this race? (Am I going to leave this race?)
I guess god's up in this place?
what is it that I've become?
is there something more to come? (more to come)
Now I see the times they change
leaving doesn't seems so strange
I am hoping I can find
where to leave my hurt behind
All this shit I seem to take
all alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?
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Rest assured, the world wont stop spinning...
and maybe something will make you smile in the morning.
Sorry to hear about the ladie troubles.
Bad relationships haunt me, also. It must be in the water..
And I'm familiar with the area you live in.
I actually run the track around the volleyball court at the park on top of Mt View somewhat frequently, and I take my dog.
And yes, My dog is fine.. but finders keepers.
He knows if it's left out for him, he can have it.
He knows good shit from skunk shit.