I am not wearing any underwear under my size 5 denims today. Chew on that! 
I had a doctor's appointment this morning. Doctor doesn't bother me. I can handle needles like pro, poke me, prod me, probe me-I am a tough cookie. However, I freak out when they weigh me (eating disorders and depression haunted my middle and high school years.). I am the heaviest I have ever been right now: 134. I am 5'7, so it doesn't really show on me like it would maybe a 5'1 person. Still. I was 123 2 months ago. My doctor says she thinks it might be the depakot, because it can cause weight gain. I go to my neurologist July 1st. I think I will switch medications. Anyway, the doc also put me on a 1500-1800 calories a day diet-which I don't even think is a diet. I exercise fairly regularly so that helps, but she said to throw in some weights and different movements. I think my body finally adjusted to Carmen Electra's Aerobic Striptease disc 1 workout. I'll go to the library and get some tae bo or something.
I may go out today. But the gas is an issue, as in-there isn't any really.
What's new friends?
Anyway...134...I am trying hard to not let this bother me. Be strong! You're still healthy.
Money money money money money!!!! Cabaret, give me money.
I love "Pavlov's Bell" by Aimee Mann.
and sue me, I like that Seether song with Amy Lee, "Broken".
...and ringing Pavlov's Bell. History shows there's not a chance in Hell...
EDIT
" the difference is that suicide is inherently harmful. drug use is not inherently harmful."
What the fuck!? Did I read this right?
I had a doctor's appointment this morning. Doctor doesn't bother me. I can handle needles like pro, poke me, prod me, probe me-I am a tough cookie. However, I freak out when they weigh me (eating disorders and depression haunted my middle and high school years.). I am the heaviest I have ever been right now: 134. I am 5'7, so it doesn't really show on me like it would maybe a 5'1 person. Still. I was 123 2 months ago. My doctor says she thinks it might be the depakot, because it can cause weight gain. I go to my neurologist July 1st. I think I will switch medications. Anyway, the doc also put me on a 1500-1800 calories a day diet-which I don't even think is a diet. I exercise fairly regularly so that helps, but she said to throw in some weights and different movements. I think my body finally adjusted to Carmen Electra's Aerobic Striptease disc 1 workout. I'll go to the library and get some tae bo or something.
I may go out today. But the gas is an issue, as in-there isn't any really.
What's new friends?
Anyway...134...I am trying hard to not let this bother me. Be strong! You're still healthy.
Money money money money money!!!! Cabaret, give me money.
I love "Pavlov's Bell" by Aimee Mann.
and sue me, I like that Seether song with Amy Lee, "Broken".
...and ringing Pavlov's Bell. History shows there's not a chance in Hell...
EDIT
" the difference is that suicide is inherently harmful. drug use is not inherently harmful."
What the fuck!? Did I read this right?
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eurisko:
i just got x-files fight the future for $1.50.... i rock!
eurisko:
the copy i got was on vhs too. i went to the video rental place and because its so small, they have to sell movies after so long, and this weekend they have a buy one get one free sale. so i got x-files, and brain candy. i probably wouldnt have even bought the x-files movie, but ive been watching the first 3 discs of the first season at my friends place because he has netflix. so its all bringing back the memories of how great the show was, and still is.