You know, I find it really hard to make friends. Really really hard. It's hard for me to talk to most people, and it's hard for a lot of people to talk to me. So getting past that stage is hard.
You know what's harder? Having to run around after people so I can spend time with them. I've now rescheduled a dinner I wanted to have with a couple of new friends FOUR times. Four!
And yet, when someone else calls they're right over. They go out drinking every week but they can't make it to my fucking house so I can make them dinner and teach them a game that they want to learn!
How far in advance am I supposed to fucking double check with these people! Too far and they forget, too soon and they've already got something else on! Or "things are really chaotic at the moment" "I'm going away next week so maybe we can reschedule?" your going away next week so you can't come over tonight?


It's really hard for me to make friends, and I think it just got too hard.