So my account upgraged itsself by direct debit which i didnt even realise till i got my bank statement the other week. Which is V sneaky on SG's part!!!!! Specially as I wasnt intending renewing my account as i never use it so i might aswell becuase i need a bit of a rant really.
It's bit a bit of a mad couple of months really. My ex dumped me. It felt like everything was going fine, but maybe it wasnt. It was never really perfect from the start as he never really ever seemed to really want me. It just smeemed to work and we got along and when we did have sex it was really good. The dumpage was kind of out of the blue and he said his heart wasnt in it. He enver really changed how he was with me towards the end. Maybe his heart was never in it. He said he wanted to be friends with me still, I wish he hadnt bothered to say that as he dumped me about 6/7 weeks ago and have I seen him since? Have I fuck.
Whenever a relationship doesnt work the next one i go for someone compleatly different.
Within hours of me boo hooing on a myspace bulletin I get asked out by this guy from Glasgow. I wasnt sure if i liked him, I got really drunk and stayed at his and the next morning I decided I did. Maybe it's becuase he was the oppsite of my ex but yeah thing seem to go fine and he even puts up with me for a weekend at his flat and when i'm on and doesnt moan too much, introduces me to his friends. then the following week for my birthday buys my a birthday pressie and cake and it super sweet and we have ace sex. Then a few days later he gives me this pish that i've turned us into a couple and he only wants to be friends. Firstly he was the one doing the turning into a couple and secondly by friends he means friends that are just friends, no sex or anything - he said it wouldnt feel right becuase i want "the one". Ummm hello rejection although he was like "it wasnt ment like that". I cant have been that bad, he seemed to enjoy it so much we did it 3 times but hey what do i know.
Why does that "friends" word come back to haunt me again????
And what the fuck do i do to them???????
Do I just scare them all away or something????
Seriously, I'm not looking for perfection and I dont think that "the one" actually even exists I just wane someone I can spend the rest of my life with. As long as they tick most of my boxes I'm happy (although I do have a lot of boxes).
I sometimes why I bother with it all and what the point in life is generally, but then again I know in a few weeks time I'll just put myself through the whole love pish again and i'll be happy for a bit and then end up getting hurt again..... when the fuck will it end?
And ya know theres this new guy at work, who I've been told likes me, and I like him and we spent last week flirting now he;s on hols for 2 weeks....... You think I would learn but oooooh nooooo.
"You know, this isn't the first time this has happened to me
This love sick thing
I like serious relationships and a
A girl like me dont stay single for long
Cuz everytime a boyfriend and I break up
My world is crushed and I'm all alone
The love bug crawls right back up and bites me and I'm back
Can't help it
The girl can't help it oh baby
Can't help it
The girl can't help it oh baby
Can't help it
The girl can't help it oh baby
Can't help it"
Lame but kinda fitting I know! Gotta love Fergie!
Sorry for random sparodic update! lol
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It's bit a bit of a mad couple of months really. My ex dumped me. It felt like everything was going fine, but maybe it wasnt. It was never really perfect from the start as he never really ever seemed to really want me. It just smeemed to work and we got along and when we did have sex it was really good. The dumpage was kind of out of the blue and he said his heart wasnt in it. He enver really changed how he was with me towards the end. Maybe his heart was never in it. He said he wanted to be friends with me still, I wish he hadnt bothered to say that as he dumped me about 6/7 weeks ago and have I seen him since? Have I fuck.
Whenever a relationship doesnt work the next one i go for someone compleatly different.
Within hours of me boo hooing on a myspace bulletin I get asked out by this guy from Glasgow. I wasnt sure if i liked him, I got really drunk and stayed at his and the next morning I decided I did. Maybe it's becuase he was the oppsite of my ex but yeah thing seem to go fine and he even puts up with me for a weekend at his flat and when i'm on and doesnt moan too much, introduces me to his friends. then the following week for my birthday buys my a birthday pressie and cake and it super sweet and we have ace sex. Then a few days later he gives me this pish that i've turned us into a couple and he only wants to be friends. Firstly he was the one doing the turning into a couple and secondly by friends he means friends that are just friends, no sex or anything - he said it wouldnt feel right becuase i want "the one". Ummm hello rejection although he was like "it wasnt ment like that". I cant have been that bad, he seemed to enjoy it so much we did it 3 times but hey what do i know.
Why does that "friends" word come back to haunt me again????
And what the fuck do i do to them???????
Do I just scare them all away or something????
Seriously, I'm not looking for perfection and I dont think that "the one" actually even exists I just wane someone I can spend the rest of my life with. As long as they tick most of my boxes I'm happy (although I do have a lot of boxes).
I sometimes why I bother with it all and what the point in life is generally, but then again I know in a few weeks time I'll just put myself through the whole love pish again and i'll be happy for a bit and then end up getting hurt again..... when the fuck will it end?
And ya know theres this new guy at work, who I've been told likes me, and I like him and we spent last week flirting now he;s on hols for 2 weeks....... You think I would learn but oooooh nooooo.
"You know, this isn't the first time this has happened to me
This love sick thing
I like serious relationships and a
A girl like me dont stay single for long
Cuz everytime a boyfriend and I break up
My world is crushed and I'm all alone
The love bug crawls right back up and bites me and I'm back
Can't help it
The girl can't help it oh baby
Can't help it
The girl can't help it oh baby
Can't help it
The girl can't help it oh baby
Can't help it"
Lame but kinda fitting I know! Gotta love Fergie!
Sorry for random sparodic update! lol
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Madness it was, truly it was.
And now she's engaged. HeHe. Strange how things work out.