Perspective
What is to one person is not always the same to another. Upbringing, life experiences, bias... all give meaning to perspective. It gives potential to something with no purpose, turns different into threatening, makes fun out of tragedy. Perspective is quite possibly the most powerful word in the world (or it's subsequent translations in other non-English languages). Given to any particular person, perspective means very little but given to one particular person, it can mean lives. Perspective excuses behavior that in most cases would not be appropriate.
I'm constantly at odds with my own perspective. I've never been able to pick sides on a topic because I can almost always see the other sides opinion. As a slave to logic and self-proclaimed genius this is frustrating beyond belief. How can one hope to form a personality if one can never settle on any given option. Take sexuality for example. At some point in everyone's life they must ask that question, "Am I gay?". I can't answer with a yes or no. I can see both sides in myself. While I have no attraction towards men, I know that if I genuinely felt in love with a man, I wouldn't suppress the feeling. I am attracted to women but I would never want to subject another human being to my skewed perception of reality for any extended period of time, male or female, so I feign disinterest. By "skewed perception of reality" I'm referring to my general outlook on the world, how it's running, how it should be run, how it's portrayed, the grand scheme. I'm not sure if anyone or anything truly exists or if it's all a dream, or something presented to me as a manner of control, or sedation. If it is real, I see almost no reason for me to exist in it. I feel absolutely no connection to my generation, the more I think about how little I have in common with just about anyone still alive today, the more it's apparent that I'll most likely live out my days alone, distracting myself from the void, or searching for other generations to connect with, other decades, centuries, millennia.
Perspective is what turns me from hopeless to being the only one with any hope at all.
What is to one person is not always the same to another. Upbringing, life experiences, bias... all give meaning to perspective. It gives potential to something with no purpose, turns different into threatening, makes fun out of tragedy. Perspective is quite possibly the most powerful word in the world (or it's subsequent translations in other non-English languages). Given to any particular person, perspective means very little but given to one particular person, it can mean lives. Perspective excuses behavior that in most cases would not be appropriate.
I'm constantly at odds with my own perspective. I've never been able to pick sides on a topic because I can almost always see the other sides opinion. As a slave to logic and self-proclaimed genius this is frustrating beyond belief. How can one hope to form a personality if one can never settle on any given option. Take sexuality for example. At some point in everyone's life they must ask that question, "Am I gay?". I can't answer with a yes or no. I can see both sides in myself. While I have no attraction towards men, I know that if I genuinely felt in love with a man, I wouldn't suppress the feeling. I am attracted to women but I would never want to subject another human being to my skewed perception of reality for any extended period of time, male or female, so I feign disinterest. By "skewed perception of reality" I'm referring to my general outlook on the world, how it's running, how it should be run, how it's portrayed, the grand scheme. I'm not sure if anyone or anything truly exists or if it's all a dream, or something presented to me as a manner of control, or sedation. If it is real, I see almost no reason for me to exist in it. I feel absolutely no connection to my generation, the more I think about how little I have in common with just about anyone still alive today, the more it's apparent that I'll most likely live out my days alone, distracting myself from the void, or searching for other generations to connect with, other decades, centuries, millennia.
Perspective is what turns me from hopeless to being the only one with any hope at all.
I can relate on the total feeling of apathy toward my peers. I can't help it, I was born this way.
Did you really have a dream about me and Heather?