herewithoutyou

Yea I didn't take as many pictures of the wedding as I thought. I don't like to take pictures when I'm in class A's. The uniform is uncomfortable enough without moving all around. Anyway, I find myself wanting more out of life. I want to pursue my photography but the fucking army is so stupid. Don't get me wrong I joined to defend the freedoms of the american people, however, I want to do so many other things that it has just become a big pain in the ass. O well. Is that selfish of me?? To want to do my own thing? I dunno. I guess I just need to take advantage of the college money and shut up. Yea, photography school sounds good but where shall I go? There is Chicago. but I'd have to move. Away from HER. She is such a complicated girl. She's a complete mess. A disaster. And she's perfect. Maybe I'll find something closer. Maybe I'll go. She probably doesn't feel the same way about this. I have to be completely honest with you. I would rather be alone if I can't be with her. But no matter my feelings I just want her to be the best and most happy person possible. I think if we can't be together she should at least be happy. that would make me smile. Something I haven't done in a long time until just now. When I saw her face in the photo.