herebeadragon

I am completely hopeless at keeping up a journal. Oh well as to whats new and worth writing well my seperated shoulder is healing nicely and I will be sure to practice my ukemi break falls more often in the future. Also I will be opening my own school in a couple of months just waiting for the current tenent in the space i'm going to rent to pack up his buisness. Anyone wanna learn LIMA LAMA? Also I am going scuba diving again sunday cant wait for that. My birthday is next month (october 24th) I'll be turning 23...weird age first time I feel like i'm really an adult....man my picture sucks I look blue really need a new picture. I dont feel so well lately...I'm lonely I'm wrestless I feel a hunger that food does not satiate and I am bored. I need to find someone and I am such a social mutant that I dont know how nothing makes sense to me anymore even human contact seems to be outside my reach and I just dont know why. I used to have this dream...about a girl...I loved her so much I never wanted to wake up funny thing is I know nothing about her. I dont even know what she looks like. I only know her feel. I'd hold her in my dream. It was almost intoxicating her warmth her love her spirit...I havent had that dream in a long time. I dont know maybe some people just are not meant to be a part of this world I've always been a shadow floating outside of the real world hanging some where between reality and whatever else there is. A shadow that fades so far away people have looked right through me and not seen me even if I called their names. Like I didnt exist for that split second....So far out of touch so distant from it all like this is the dream and I just havent got up yet.