hephaestos

i really don't think i'll keep up on this blog thing very well here. i already have a longstanding one over with blogger

here's the latest post, though:
do you ever feel like you'll never stop being in transition?
i've been in washington for over a year and yet i still refer to both colorado and here as home. it feels wierd to talk about colorado without saying home. it's where i was born and grew up. but then this is my new home. i guess maybe having my very own place soon will help me feel like i've really fully set down roots here. even so, i can't help but wonder if this happens to more people than just me.
i feel like i'm in limbo, in some ways, just waiting for some catalytic event to clearly define home and former home. it just hasn't come yet. it's a lot like my views on religion right now. i've left my former spiritual home and it almost feels like i'm waiting for some epiphany to come and begin my new faith.
i just hate not knowing what i'm about. i hate not knowing in general, it's one of my most powerful pet peaves. i need to know the answer to it all.
i do know one thing,
that is all.