hendry

What a great Christmas!!! I wound up closing up the bar at 2 rather than 10 like they wanted me. It was a huge party. I had women dancing on the bar to the smiths. I whispered to them that they would have to get down after the song was over. They didn't hear me though, but hey for legal reasons I was in the right. So the bar closes, and I kept some friend's there. One of them left her hat, and coat, and scarf. She called me up to tell me to bring them over. I did. I had The best cuddle partner ever!!!!!!! Her bed was soooo comfy!!! I have known her for years, and now I have a fucking crush on her. That sucks because I don't need to have a bloody crush on anyone right now. I sent her a thank you card regardless. I've always thought of them as friends, I love their wit, but I don't want to ruin any of that. What if we did actually hook up? It would fuck the whole friend thing up because I'm very stupid, and I do very stupid things. I hooked up with a friend before, and it fucked everything up. We hung out for a very long time off and on. I'm not even looking for anything with anyone, but at the same time it felt really, really good. I work in a bar up on the hill, and the entire time I've worked there, I know I'm not ugly. I'm not super dorky. I don't keep dead babies in my closet, I just get to be me. I love getting numbers from women. I really, really like this one girl from Canada that works at this Italian bakery/Cafe. I feel like I'm 16 again!!! Blah!!!! I'll tell you about her next time. I'm too old/young for this shit.