Don't you feel sometimes how it could be so easy to be happy?
I am training myself.
I am training myself.
lemuria:
yes. its all just paying attention to your thoughts. but im sure you know that. usually seeing old people and babies and cute animals will change my mood to happiness automatically. 
phatlaces:
I'm usually content, but so easily my days can go either way.
I feel horrible.
It is a phase, I have lived this kind of stuff before
and I have learned that you always survive.
I have also learned that we owe it to ourselves,
as hard and counterintuitive as it may feel,
to protect our feelings and,
if necessary, set boundaries and raise walls
that we never believed we were going to raise.
It is not...
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It is a phase, I have lived this kind of stuff before
and I have learned that you always survive.
I have also learned that we owe it to ourselves,
as hard and counterintuitive as it may feel,
to protect our feelings and,
if necessary, set boundaries and raise walls
that we never believed we were going to raise.
It is not...
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I am setting healthy boundaries.
phatlaces:
That's good. I set those for myself awhile ago.
Tune in and get back in phase with reality.
Make a step back and don't run faster than your life.
Let it catch up with you and slowly surround you,
once again, so that your rythms can, once more, beat together
and so that you may not suffer anymore from being detached
from what you should be a part of.
Flow back in phase, so...
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Make a step back and don't run faster than your life.
Let it catch up with you and slowly surround you,
once again, so that your rythms can, once more, beat together
and so that you may not suffer anymore from being detached
from what you should be a part of.
Flow back in phase, so...
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calina:
well, you just sound like you have it all figured out.
but, are you really following your own advice?
but, are you really following your own advice?
calina:
I'm not asking for advice, and I am not trying to give you any.
It's nice to see you venting your anger now............
It's nice to see you venting your anger now............
Total burnout mode.
I feel like Italy, 1999,
before grabbing a backpack and heading wherever.
I feel and probably want to feel
that I am so fed up with everything
that anything is possible now.
I need to get out of here.
I should not lose this energy
and let it melt once more
in the reassuring and smothering routine of habit,
as soon as...
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I feel like Italy, 1999,
before grabbing a backpack and heading wherever.
I feel and probably want to feel
that I am so fed up with everything
that anything is possible now.
I need to get out of here.
I should not lose this energy
and let it melt once more
in the reassuring and smothering routine of habit,
as soon as...
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everthere:
The kind of heat you are feeling, unfortunately it tends to melt things rather than spark things. I hope that you beat the odds and that it leads to a flame for you - one that does not consume you.
On a brighter note: hurray for cute doctor girls.
On a brighter note: hurray for cute doctor girls.
Too few people around whose opinion I really value, currently.
A little health concern that is bugging me.
Tired of being a rat employee spinning a wheel I care nothing for.
Tired of not having the time to take care of all that's waiting to be taken care of.
I feel at a crossroad.
I am not tired of walking, whichever road I'll end up...
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A little health concern that is bugging me.
Tired of being a rat employee spinning a wheel I care nothing for.
Tired of not having the time to take care of all that's waiting to be taken care of.
I feel at a crossroad.
I am not tired of walking, whichever road I'll end up...
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poopy:
merci ! 
shezakiller:
I miss you too 
I miss our talks...it's so refreshing to actually talk to someone with a substantial measure of intelligence!
I miss our talks...it's so refreshing to actually talk to someone with a substantial measure of intelligence!How much of myself do I like?
How much do I hate?
How much is there in my life that I want to change
but that keeps being sidelined by lesser things?
I guess it is not just about what you accomplish
but particularly about your general attitude towards accomplishing anything.
It is another one of those things which make me believe
that the ability...
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How much do I hate?
How much is there in my life that I want to change
but that keeps being sidelined by lesser things?
I guess it is not just about what you accomplish
but particularly about your general attitude towards accomplishing anything.
It is another one of those things which make me believe
that the ability...
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calina:
It sounds like you are experiencing something
that is very commonplace with individuals
who are consciously trying
to grow and better themselves.
It's a good thing.
that is very commonplace with individuals
who are consciously trying
to grow and better themselves.
It's a good thing.
This is sure to hurt someone.
If it ends up so, apologies in advance, for this is not the intention.
I cleaned up the ridiculous "friends' list" that this site saw me slowly building up,
without really thinking.
If I have not heard from you in a while, never heard from you at all,
or worse, barely remember who the hell you are,
chances are,...
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If it ends up so, apologies in advance, for this is not the intention.
I cleaned up the ridiculous "friends' list" that this site saw me slowly building up,
without really thinking.
If I have not heard from you in a while, never heard from you at all,
or worse, barely remember who the hell you are,
chances are,...
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hemlock170374:
I think about it
but I don't understand why it is so difficult to be sincere.
Call things with their name,
sometimes you'll have to endure a few short-lived consequences
but the relief you'll get later from knowing that you've been true and fearless
is priceless.
but I don't understand why it is so difficult to be sincere.
Call things with their name,
sometimes you'll have to endure a few short-lived consequences
but the relief you'll get later from knowing that you've been true and fearless
is priceless.
calina:
Whew, I'm glad I survived the cut. 
No more I love you's,
'cause really,
language is leaving me.
This place is about talking
but really,
talking is just talking
and when it's too much, it usually means nothing.
When it's too much, it usually means
that the person in front of you
managed to come up with something to say
to cover up the fact of having nothing to say.
I'll devote...
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'cause really,
language is leaving me.
This place is about talking
but really,
talking is just talking
and when it's too much, it usually means nothing.
When it's too much, it usually means
that the person in front of you
managed to come up with something to say
to cover up the fact of having nothing to say.
I'll devote...
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phatlaces:
How am I supposed to comment on it's beauty if you keep telling us to stop talking?!
brightredscream:
This is beautiful.
of feeling detached from the others
and yet creating something that will probably somehow reach the others,
it is difficult to remember that the others should indeed not matter
in the process of creation."
well, sir, you hit the nail on the head there! it really is a contradiction, and perhaps one without resolution. but the struggle is the process, and the process is the organism of art... it's true i was suffering from a block at the time of formulating my "manifesto"; the block is gone now, thankfully, but i would like to give the discipline a chance. however, it is very difficult, and perhaps contradicts the nature of poetry. we'll see... also true are the words of Mr Massee up there.