hemlock170374

How much of myself do I like?
How much do I hate?
How much is there in my life that I want to change
but that keeps being sidelined by lesser things?
I guess it is not just about what you accomplish
but particularly about your general attitude towards accomplishing anything.
It is another one of those things which make me believe
that the ability to turn off thought and just DO things
is one of the greatest you can develop and possess.
I have a very clear vision about this.
I know where and how I should act,
as I successfully did in the past.
My positivity is one that is hard to knock down entirely,
yet I find myself now needing so much of that.
I look inside myself and, when I want, I see quiet.
Quiet and energy, the kind that is fed by my own self,
without needing any external source,
as it always was for most of my life.
Yet, I'm just quite not there.
I look inside myself again
and I see uncertain emotions,
thoughts and fears about what my way in this life really is.
I see my weaknesses then,
my ultimate need for assistance, for a mirror to look at
when times are uncertain, like now.
As much as I know that I ultimately have to build my own place by myself,
I often realize that I am also looking for help,
hoping to find it before the building is completed.
A life ago, I was sure that I could walk until the end of the world alone.
I still am.
However,
what I did not know,
a life ago,
is how precious is to have someone to share the load
and how important is to know when to ask for help.

If you think you have found it, people,
keep it as the most precious thing ever.
In the worst times,
it will be like a divine gift
that will softly whisper to you:
"Everyone's destiny is to be alone...
but you are not..."