At the risk of sounding like a whiney emo kid, which I am definately NOT, I have to ask one question...
Why must some people suffer unbearable agony so that others can be happy?
Are these people just stronger than others?
Are their souls capable of bearing a heavier load than that of others.
I mean, if I was half as strong as I am, I would have killed myself years ago.
Beaten, bloodied, left to smolder in the wreckage of failed relationships, my soul has endured. My spirit has prevailed the severest of tortures...
But the question remains...
why?
Why do I have to feel like this?
I'm a genuinely good person. I help others. I don't expect rewards. I have a huge heart...full of love, despite the world's efforts to turn it to hate...
I've been walked on, stepped over, and used as a ladder for others to find what they have been looking for.
Hell, every girl I've dated has gone on to find "the one" RIGHT after me.
Am I like, the test boyfriend?
The disposable guy.
Pretty good, but not EXACTLY what anyone wants?
Everyone has always told me "be yourself, and you will find someone who will love you for you."
So I be myself...
and it doesn't work.
Ever.
I mean, I am starting to think that I need to be someone else to be happy...
and I don't like thinking that way.
Anyway, now that I've whined enough to make no one want to talk to me ever,
-KOS
Why must some people suffer unbearable agony so that others can be happy?
Are these people just stronger than others?
Are their souls capable of bearing a heavier load than that of others.
I mean, if I was half as strong as I am, I would have killed myself years ago.
Beaten, bloodied, left to smolder in the wreckage of failed relationships, my soul has endured. My spirit has prevailed the severest of tortures...
But the question remains...
why?
Why do I have to feel like this?
I'm a genuinely good person. I help others. I don't expect rewards. I have a huge heart...full of love, despite the world's efforts to turn it to hate...
I've been walked on, stepped over, and used as a ladder for others to find what they have been looking for.
Hell, every girl I've dated has gone on to find "the one" RIGHT after me.
Am I like, the test boyfriend?
The disposable guy.
Pretty good, but not EXACTLY what anyone wants?
Everyone has always told me "be yourself, and you will find someone who will love you for you."
So I be myself...
and it doesn't work.
Ever.
I mean, I am starting to think that I need to be someone else to be happy...
and I don't like thinking that way.
Anyway, now that I've whined enough to make no one want to talk to me ever,
-KOS
Kisses