hemaniscool

hello.....i am drunk.no suprise there then.it's funny, i used to drink when i was a lil kid.then i stopped for years.then i started again when i broke up with my girlfriend which was over a year ago.i guess i'm trying to catch up

had an interesting day.i had a kinda realisation in the morning.i been feeling kinda blue for a loooong time.mainly due to the fact that girls don't seem to like me.it's ok though.i understand why.i'm a twat.down the pub i just started dancing around with my shirt over my head.i don't think girls find that very attractive.but,as i said it's been getting me down.i became quite obssessive over some things.i guess when i get stressed and anxious i can get a bit obsessive compulsive.i obsessed about myself and why girls don't 'get' me.

but,today i kinda hit a point where i realised i don't NEED a girl to make me 'complete'.now don't get me wrong.yes,i get lonely and being with someone would be awesome.i think i'm an ok guy and would treat a girl right.but i was getting down about the lack of interest i get.i've decided to stop worrying about it.i hope i meet a nice girl at some point,but i ain't gonna feel like i'm less of a person for being single.i've been single for most of my life and i've done ok, so that's.......ok.i know i'm still gonna have days where i'm so lonely i could scream, but i'm used to it.....so yeah.....girls....sucks they don't like me, but i ain't gonna worry none no more

went shopping in bath with DDRShaolin was good.the sun was shining.i didn't act like too much of a twat to people.had a cream egg mcflurry, bought hellboy2 on dvd and got some awesome sexy new underwear i have the best underwear ever!! i swear.also got some dirty manga in waterstones,but it's a bit crap.dirty comics are usually dissapointing i find.think i might have to do some of my own at some point and fuck the world.

not posting any art.i know i havn't posted any art for a while.i've been struggling with my confidence.i put so much pressure on myself for my art to be good that it stops me drawing all together.but, i'm getting over that shit now.got some stuff i'm working on.

i'm gonna draw a portrait of the lovely Tragique she asked me ages ago and i havn't got around to it yet.but it's on my to do list.i just hope it looks ok.

working on my own comic too.gonna be good.i've also teamed up with my friend thom aka 'the duke'.some of you may know him on here.i've known thom a while but,havn't seen him in ages.i've always liked his brain for writing and he says he always liked my work so we're teaming up.it's gonna be sweet.i've been asked to illustrate people's comics before, but they always lay it on too thick and it scares me off.thom's kind of in the same mind as me.we just want a project to gain some confidence and get back into comics again.we're gonna take our time and go with the flow.which is great.it's a nice story too.set in the future with a strong female lead.just my sort of thing.also,he invited me to a dvd night on the 18th of april.i think some SG folks may be there, so it'd be great to meet some of you

bought a new car today picking it up next week.i've had an old skool mini (which i love and will miss with all my heart) for 3 years and although i love it it's not really motorway worthy.so, now i'll be able to get outta bristol.i just need a reason.so, why not invite me to hang out.i could dance in my pants for you.....or not.it's up to you.

ok, i think i've said enough now.just want to say thanks to ALL the people that comment on my blogs.i really appreciate it.this site has given me a lot of confidence since i joined.if i ever meet you i will greet you with a big hug and smile also,i wanna give a shout out to the lovely SouperheroV she is awesome.thanks for being nice to me my dear

ok that is all.peace out.art next blog, all being well