While I was at work a girl I had a couple conversations with asked me to lunch. I wasn't able to go. Work went on, and I left early because of the flood to go see a show out of town. This girl happened to be in that town (neither of us live there). She said I should come by her grandmas. I've never met her, so I forwent seeing family. Hung out with my friends. Got the vibe I wasn't invited to a party by my friend Bryce. I invited him out the night before and he was sketchy about it. Anyway I get a text from him asking me about hanging out with this girl. They used to fuck. I dont know much about it. He has talked to me twice about her and both times he talked shit about her. Said she was clingy and he wasn't interested at all anymore. I leveled with him and told him I am not a mind reader and if he isn't interested in someone then he needs to tell me. Especially if he generally likes her, because I am in no place emotionally to date and its unfair for me to just want someone's company if he wants their heart.
After that, I was invited out to the bars with some other friends. I was warned my ex was there right before I got there. I hung out with my friends but inevitably she saw me and confronted me inside. Long story short, tried to deny everything that happened between us. Then I showed her all the pics I had and screen captured messages I had. Continued to argue with me. I turned around and shooed her away. She came back later and wanted to talk outside. Pretty much a similar conversation. She started to cry and I told her she needed to go home. What is done is done. I later took my professors 3 daughters to a house party. Then one of them wanted to leave early and I took her, a boy picked up another one, and I took the 3rd home. The 3rd one doesn't live here and IDK her well at all. The others I do. Anyway we sat in her driveway and talked awhile about families and how her dad is a badass. It was really nice.
Things would've been a lot different had she not denied everything to my face. Had she apologized for leading me on and all that other junk I probably would've been submissive. Once she acted like I was a loon and was making things up though, I couldn't deal. I am not evil. I did everything for her and her son. I feel terrible it came to this, I really do, but it had to be done. I forgot how close it was to the Holidays too. Blah. I hope she takes care of herself after all of this. I have so many emotions running through me right now and I've been drinking milk exclusively lately and its not settling well. I want to sleep all day but I dont think I can. I want to be out of my apartment but I dont want to be around people.
Its times like these I wish I had a best friend I was close to. Oh wait, I did, and she cheated on her bf with me... Fuck. My. Life.
