Went to the SG Blackheart burlesque show Tuesday. It was awesome. I was supposed to take a friend who does a little bit of everything but is known for her porn. She had to bail because her manger fucked something up. She was bummed. I found a replacement last minute. This girl likes me so its a little awkward but shes older than me so its not as annoying as people my age who crush on me. I've never been to a show before. It was mostly just people stripping and such but I was fine with that. @katherine was a great MC. I was avoiding standing in front because I dont drink and I didnt want to be forced into body shots, but I was jealous of the fight-club-try-hard who kept getting beer poured on him. I think the were trying to take the gel out of his spikes. He also kept taking body shots. Licking those bodies. Mmm. They also had a strip contest involving two girls and a guy. I wanted to so I could get my membership renewed, but I was carrying heat. My friend tried to volunteer me and some of the girls around me were tugging at me to get onto the stage. That wouldve been bad. I was carrying legally, but that woudlve made everyone uncomfortable. There was a girl who danced who had glorious tits. Tiny waist, huge boobs. I wanted to talk to her but I was with my friend and I didnt want to make her feel awkward. I took a ton of IG pics as well. I have half a mind to go to the Nashville one and strip. My ex told me one of her favorite girls is going to be there too. IDK. We lingered because my friend wanted some pictures. The red-leather-jacket guy hung around and was trying to figure out what we were doing afterwards. I told him we were driving home and drove home the point that we were going home as tactfully as I could. He wasn't offended. After we left we saw him hanging around outside. When we headed to my car he started following us. We took a detour to lose him. Super creepy. My friend was glad I had a gun now.
Wednesday. I had a friend who hasn't come home but once or twice since I started college. She doesn't even have any family that lives in our hometown anymore. She was one of the few people that I was actually close to in my high school and we had a fling for a short time when we were younger, then later after my first ex (Robin) and I broke up. Anytime I go to IU I crash on her couch and that is often. However we've both have been seeing someone in the last year and I think she finds me unattractive when I am on a binge about my most recent ex. We're close and we don't talk a lot over the phone but don't act like it when we see each other. Its the most stable friendship i've had. My more recent ex also always got super jealous of her. Ironically, my friend Lydia used to run around the same circle as my ex's ex. So Lydia has dirt on people, like I do, and that makes my ex more uncomfortable. Drama, I know. Anyway, I dragged Lydia around pre-thanksgiving family stuff and then we went out to the bar with my friends. Naturally everyone was out since everyone is back in town for break. We saw lots of people, had fun, she got to dance with another friend of mine (Brittney). While I was out, I believe my ex sent her ex out to check up on me or to make me mad and cause drama. If he wouldve reported back he wouldve told her who I was with. I wasn't telling. Her plan wouldve backfired because I was with a girl she is jealous of. Blah. Anyway after we found bandaids for a drunk friend who fell outside and I pulled a cousin away from a fight, we went to my friend Tom's. He is on leave and we always party when he is in town. That didn't last long. Everyone crashed within an hour. Lydia and I go back to my apartment and we sleep together. This is odd because this is the first time we've done this in a year, but I took a chance and assumed she wanted to because about a week ago she was talking about wanting to have a threesome with me, which was also odd because she hasn't said anything sexually directly too me in a long time. I am glad she did, I was feeling like I wasn't good enough even though I understood it was more complicated than that. She wasn't able to have sex that night, and that was fine. That was the best cuddling I have had in a long time. It is always different when it is with someone who genuinely enjoys bodies, knows you, has known you, and cares about you. I'm still affected by it. I still frustrated her sexually knowing she can't have sex though.
Thursday. We woke up and went to my parents. My little sister needed help with an outfit. Lydia helped her and I skyped for a moment with my other little sister and brother. They're in Greece. He is there for the semester and she visited him. We went to Thanksgiving and it wasn't so bad. There are 5 girls in my mom's family. 4/5 were there. One has a 2yr old girl, one has 2 boys, and one has a boy and a girl. The latter is the only one that lives in town out of my aunts and her children are the devil. However, other than breaking a window and being loud, they weren't too bad. One of the other boys told everyone he was thankful for me during supper. It was super cute. Lydia and I handled the kids well. Makes me miss my ex's kid. Lydia was sneaking my sister drinks. We got the bright idea of getting apples to apples to play with the drunk adults. We forgot that Black Friday sales started early at Wal Mart. Luckily it wasn't too bad other than parking. We're also assertive in those situations. I made out with Lydia before we went back inside my grandmas house. We got back and one of the devil children spotted the game and took over. It was a maelstorm I didnt didnt have the energy to handle so I went with it. We played one game and left. She had to catch her ride back to IU. After that I went to hang with my friend on leave again. The girl I had been tying up recently came and hung out for a bit. We boned afterwards. We tried anal but she couldn't deal. Boo.
Friday. I went to work all day. No biggie there. Made some money. Afterwards I went back to Tom's. He had a legitimate party this time. By the time I got there his basement was packed. I drove my friend Mallory there since she was going to be drinking and then the same friend I had been tying up came back out. Everyone had fun and both of those girls are coming out of their shells. I made her go upstairs and stuff her pockets full of cookies Tom's grandparents made. I grabbed a glass of milk and we tried to sneak cookies. Eventually people saw and wanted some. I had planned ahead and made sure she had plenty. We went home and started fooling around. It was super late and I was dead. My littlest sister called and said she had been out and needed a place to crash. After that call I lost even more energy. I tied a belt around this girl I brought home's neck and made her suck me off. She still wanted to go but I was exhausted and sex is never quick with me. My sister crashed. I overslept and was almost late for work. My sister was gone by the time I got up and I had to kick the girl out. I felt bad for both situations. I haven't eaten yet.
