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So my ex and I fooled around some more. I hung out with her son and her for lunch yesterday. I missed him. She still has a boyfriend. We have had some serious conversations but she isn't leaving him. She is all I want. I blocked her number for the second time this week. I came into work with nothing on the schedule. Turns out I was scheduled an appointment (tattoo) which is good because I need money and I am behind on rent, but I was hoping to do my research paper that is do on Sunday while I was at the shop. It is not a problem for me to knock out research papers but I don't have internet and have to do it at the shop or my parent's house. I'd rather stay away from my parent's house. I was also the only person here until 3pm. Its Friday and we've been pretty steady. No one told what was up with the schedule until after I got busy. We were also low on almost all of our supplies. I am just bitter because I get criticized a lot yet I am the most consistent person here and I take on responsibility all the time without saying anything. Thats what I get for being afraid of confrontation I guess. The other guy here I like but he has a lot of drama and is catching me up. I listen because he doesn't trust many people and we get along but I really just want to be alone. I asked a girl to come over and cuddle last night. I really just wanted to not be alone and maybe have someone play with my hair. She didn't even stay the night. We made it maybe 20minutes into the movie. I fucked her hard. It was more out of resentment. After awhile it was over but I still teased her. I can make her cum like a waterfall but I would stop. She was going to be frustrated. If my ex doesn't contact me by tonight I may call her over and tie her up and take out my aggression that way. My ex "made" me send her a story of what I would've done to her had we had sex instead of just fooling around. Now thinking about sex is a disappointment because its not with her. Today she dropped off food and saw a girl who ditched me on my birthday was texting me. She got bitter after that and threatened to contact the girl and tell her to quit talking to me. She said I was just talking to her so I could fuck the girl out of revenge or loneliness. She was right which made her more sour. Then I blocked her number. I'm thinking about writing another short story. I wanted to start but the customers in here are loud and rude and its hard to concentrate. I feel bad for wanting to write a story instead of my research paper. I am broke. I need more diet pills.