hellwood

I have some questions about why am I over here and why am i doing this, man its a long story but all i have is time and i guess so do you. I have lived for thinking this is what i wanted, dreamed it, wanted to prove to myself over and over again just what i am capable of, like knowing yourself from the inside out, proving to myself what i can take and what my limits are, and man i have found most of them. I have done my time and my share of hardships, now i am here for my friends and brothers. I dare not leave them when they are in need, that is not my style. I thought i wanted this when i was younger, now.....
over here, its a whole different story, the ol saying war is hell, i guess its where you are in the war, to the people who actualy see it man I wish on no person. humans are animals. I am here to try and save lives, thats my job. and the horrors that i see would shock any ER doctor, what is worse is trying to fix what the "doctors" over here do to people. I dont know which is worse.... the only thing i look forward to is the kids here, seeing the look in their eyes, their spirit, when they come running to the road or coming to say thanks for what we have done. Knowing that one day they will be in charge and a new hope and dream for them. why am i here, could be rude and say becuase your not, but no I chose it and i live it with a dream to one day live like van wilder! thats not all the reasons but your probaly bored of reading this now
thanks for looking
elwood