hellsteve

Damn kids.

Last week I was feeling fine. My cousins kids got me sick.


Damn kids.

...Maybe I am just a completely hateful bastard.

I spent my thanksgiving at home by myself. Dinner consisted of a Super Star Combo from Carl's Jr.

Why?

I dunno.

I was supposed to spend turkey-day with my best friend, and his girlfriend that I hate. So, I decided to take nap in the early afternoon before heading down to his girlfriends house (ugh).

I awoke...
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THE WOUND STILL BLEEDS...

Ok. to ad to my last post *sigh* I've given it some thought, and I now realize that I'm incapable of having a girlfriend right now.

I was bothered by this thought because I have a crush on a certain girl right now. (what can I say, when I crush, I crush HARD)

And I thought that I could `move on...
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I THINK I'M IN BIG TROUBLE.

I think I have a crush on a girl.

I've been single for about a year and a half. After being in a realtionship for six years.

I'm very confused right now, I'm still very much in love with my last girlfriend, but that relationship is over. Forever. Absolutely. Positively. Over.

I never really though about dating again. It...
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SON OF A BITCH!!!!

I guess this is a bit of a late reaction, but I just realized that I lost my "go to" friend.

He is a lost cause...I lost him to his woman.

Now it seems like I don't envite "him" out anymore, I envite "them" out.

FUCK.

Everytime I ask him if he wants to do something, It always end with "...
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This weekend seems to be tied with last weekend as the lamest fucking weekend ever.

I've been coughing for over a week now and my body is sore in odd places as a result of coughing so hard for so long.

There was a ton of fun shit to do all weekend but I blew it all off, including a punk rock social AND a...
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Sick. Again. I think I have the SARS.

I want to die.

I lay here in agony thinking about happy thoughts.

Bored. Bored. Bored. Last weekend was a blast. This weekend, not so much. just sitting home, bored.
Hopefully tomorrow will be more productive.

I think I hate my friends...

My birthday is saturday. I was planning on going to the INK AND IRON show in long beach.

Rockabilly music, Tattoos, Burlesque, friggin sweet!!!

My "best" friend has known about this show for the better part of the last year.

...and this past saturday He calls to tell me he cant go.

AAAARRRGH!!!

Loser. I need new friends

Warning! Long long rant my lovelies....

STOOD UP !

I recently began talking to an old friend that I havent seen or heard from in years.

She was a high school friend, I mean I thought we were friends. We didn't hang out in the same circles & we didn't hang out anytime out side of school, but I knew this person for a very...
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Thought of the day,

To quote one of my all time, top five, favorite movies: "Only people of a certain disposition are frightened of being left alone for the rest of their lives at twenty six, and we were of that disposition."

It's funny but when the movie came out, these words didn't carry any weight with them.

but now I wonder...

Don't get me...
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I wish that tomorrow would never come...

In a few short hours it will be the one year anniversary of the worst day of my life.

I bleed inside just thinking about it. And I wish more than anything that tomorrow never comes...