1. I am a treasure trove of virtually useless information, a veritable plethora of trivial junk...and I kind of like it
2. I talk alot, I never knew I talked alot until a few years back...I always thought I was vocal, expressive...I knew that I talked fast...but I have realized, I talk alot...alot
3. I have been called intense, or passionate, a few million times in my life
4. I am very inclined to a procrastinators laziness, and on the other hand, a busy, busy, busy life...its almost like I flirt with inertia, when rolling I roll, when sitting idle, I idle
5. I have the attention span of a gnat
6. Ironically, I love marijuana...for a multitude of reasons and, I am a light social drinker...seldomly getting wasted, but enjoying those occasions, and paying physically
7. When wasted on whiskey, I am likely to do anything...anything
8. I have not the slightest clue what I want to do with my life, and I would say, the unknown of that, bothers me...as I do feel some pressure from peers, parents, society, to make "something" of myself...ironically I am very well supported by my family...and i do not mean financially, they believe in me, and are willing to let me be whoever I want to be.
9. Both my parents had cancer last year...all of my mom's siblings, and parents have died from cancer within my lifetime...especially the last few years
10. I have had one long serious relationship in my life...it ended horribly, my grandma was dying in my arms, my dog died, and she, my girlfriend started seeing someone else, I was fucking demolished...and turned to writing...and having sex with random girls...
11. Writing had always been a lesser hobby of mine, a boredom killer during calculus...it has become a foundation for who I am
12. I always wonder about the perspective I can't see, the holes in my armor. I try to be holistic, and meticulous with my contemplations...but I always fret, and in turn create doubt, which allows unseen holes to open...maybe the answer is just to let the unknown be that, and get up from the falling, determined...to not hide, but demand....ah, I know nothing...isn't it grand, and funny.
13. I would be happy as hell to find someone who saw my writing as talented, and for that person to take me under their wing, and help me mold me...paging Mr. Pound...
14. I have decided I don't want to suffer from depression, and in turn realize my isolation, and art may suffer
15. I have a degree, but work downtown minneaplis at a trendy high profile "meat market", and have no respect for any form of gold digging...much like this crazy ghetto girl i met high on opium in central minnesota once told me...."God hates ugly, and he aint too fond of pretty neither."
16. I saved someone from drowning when I was five...
17. I don't believe in ghosts, but have seen them, and their work
18. I believe in love, like a fairy tale...albeit with my feet on the ground, and my hands ready to churn soil for work...I believe in love, and dreams
19. Karl Jung said I am introverted, intuiting, thinking, and percieving
20. I listen to all kinds of music, but have a soft spot for alt.country...especially lines like, "may the wind take your troubles away"
2. I talk alot, I never knew I talked alot until a few years back...I always thought I was vocal, expressive...I knew that I talked fast...but I have realized, I talk alot...alot
3. I have been called intense, or passionate, a few million times in my life
4. I am very inclined to a procrastinators laziness, and on the other hand, a busy, busy, busy life...its almost like I flirt with inertia, when rolling I roll, when sitting idle, I idle
5. I have the attention span of a gnat
6. Ironically, I love marijuana...for a multitude of reasons and, I am a light social drinker...seldomly getting wasted, but enjoying those occasions, and paying physically
7. When wasted on whiskey, I am likely to do anything...anything
8. I have not the slightest clue what I want to do with my life, and I would say, the unknown of that, bothers me...as I do feel some pressure from peers, parents, society, to make "something" of myself...ironically I am very well supported by my family...and i do not mean financially, they believe in me, and are willing to let me be whoever I want to be.
9. Both my parents had cancer last year...all of my mom's siblings, and parents have died from cancer within my lifetime...especially the last few years
10. I have had one long serious relationship in my life...it ended horribly, my grandma was dying in my arms, my dog died, and she, my girlfriend started seeing someone else, I was fucking demolished...and turned to writing...and having sex with random girls...
11. Writing had always been a lesser hobby of mine, a boredom killer during calculus...it has become a foundation for who I am
12. I always wonder about the perspective I can't see, the holes in my armor. I try to be holistic, and meticulous with my contemplations...but I always fret, and in turn create doubt, which allows unseen holes to open...maybe the answer is just to let the unknown be that, and get up from the falling, determined...to not hide, but demand....ah, I know nothing...isn't it grand, and funny.
13. I would be happy as hell to find someone who saw my writing as talented, and for that person to take me under their wing, and help me mold me...paging Mr. Pound...
14. I have decided I don't want to suffer from depression, and in turn realize my isolation, and art may suffer
15. I have a degree, but work downtown minneaplis at a trendy high profile "meat market", and have no respect for any form of gold digging...much like this crazy ghetto girl i met high on opium in central minnesota once told me...."God hates ugly, and he aint too fond of pretty neither."
16. I saved someone from drowning when I was five...
17. I don't believe in ghosts, but have seen them, and their work
18. I believe in love, like a fairy tale...albeit with my feet on the ground, and my hands ready to churn soil for work...I believe in love, and dreams
19. Karl Jung said I am introverted, intuiting, thinking, and percieving
20. I listen to all kinds of music, but have a soft spot for alt.country...especially lines like, "may the wind take your troubles away"
2. Me: long, long, long, deep, nerve wracking (for me and everyone else) silences punctuated by sharp, rhythmic, funny, sarcastic, poetic, philosophical and often bizzare and ironic rants.
I've done (non denominational) spiritual counciling, as well, and continue to do so.
3. I resemble that remark.
4. Were we seperated at birth?
5. buzzzzzzzzzzz
6. I love weed. A lot.
7. I'm a sober alchoholic. Almost killed me. Prodigous appetite for da booze...
8. I'm an artist and writer. I'm widely and enthusiastically supported by friends and family. A blessing.
9. Wow...
10. Peace to ya, man.
11. Same here. It's been a major part of my foundation since about age 20.
12. Amen.
13. I see the talent. My credentials improve, I'll see what I can do about getting you some recognition. I think Ezra pound is dead.
14. Nah. Old wives tale. Trust me...
15. Far out quote!
16. (hero)
17. Yes
18. Yes
19. The man's a genius.
20. Dig!
The big bad C. It took my grandfather and my friends dad this year. And my dad spent all year fighting it in chemo.
I don't think you have to have depression to be inspired. Maybe more the opposite.
I'm thinking you got plenty of time to do something good still. Keep your eye on the star.
In my own case I've realized there's two things: getting by and doing what you want. Hopefully they meet together as much as possible, but it's not entirely necessary, in fact totally rare.
Maybe find a line of work that's indirectly supportive of writing to support what you really want to do....
Thanks for passing it on. Good one!