helloiamthomas

Hello World.
I have not been on here in quite some time I just recently moved to Houston Tx from peoria Illinois and to be completely Honest i am lonely afraid and depressed. I have always handled change rather well this time is completely different i am working very hard to try and improve myself physically ( No more excessive drinking and going to the gym on a regular basses i have also stopped snacking and now munch on veggies instead of candy ) ... and mentally (i have decided to let people in and start make myself more emotionally available to woman for relationships i have also decide to not have sex until i am in a relationship its a change for me i was more the friend with benefits and never the boyfriend mostly because i set myself up for failure and sabotaged my " relationships " on purpose) The reason i am so scared tho is i am not sure if people here will like the new me or if by changing myself i will become the Hippocratic person i used to hate.....


Also i miss my friends today i was going threw my photos on my computer and i found an album filled with pictures of them it was the first time i have cried like a baby in a long time i feel like i took those people who i love so much for granted and the daily phone calls for hangouts and parties have stopped and been replaced by a txt message saying how much they missed me.... It was odd for me to be stuck at home by myself with nothing to do so net flix has become my new best friend





Also i have found a new addiction Coffee witch in al fairness i loved before but the tenet in the house i live in left some very good Hawaiian macadamia chocolate roast in the freezer for my enjoyment I thank them for that it is delightful so i have since then gone out and purchased more Costly "Gourmet" coffees and have fallen in love im now on a 5 cup a day minimum and look forward to it every morning



I hope you all had a good safe new year Im off to make another pot and watch a movie