hellcatjustine

It's friday. and I have a job.


and I got some shit to do!


tell me something good y'all.

please?

day two of the new job. It's really boring so far, I'm just trying to get through training. this schedule is kicking my ass at the moment.


I don't really have all that much to say, I'm just exhausted. and crabby.

three more days to the weekend!

tell me, what's new in your world?

a sunny saturday afternoon. maybe a little too sunny. I'm kinda red from being out at the pool with my best friend today.

I forgot to bring the cocktails, but it was so hot I'm glad I did. I can't imagine how that would have gone with alcohol. we had herbal refreshment anyhow.


trying to bring myself back to a normal schedule. 7:30 am to...
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we hope that you choke...

nothing exciting really happens anymore. Late night tv rituals, frozen pizza. diet coke with lime.

got a new/old couch. feels nice, doesn't smell, doesn't match. two out of three ain't bad.

I found out some things. things I didn't know.

always the last to know.

I have to schedule some tests soon. cross your fingers. my luck has been that...
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Aimee hit the atmosphere and bought herself a rocket ride out of this gutter.


Happy Birthday Robert. even though you can't read this.

what happens when you realize that your life is something altogether different than what you'd planned.

would you be pissed? or sad? or would you maybe see that the thing you wanted most you found when you weren't looking.

funny how it...
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My grass is greener. I'm a lucky girl.

I didn't get the job with my dad's friend. Just as well, I start the call center thing the 12th, just trying to stay going until then.

It's almost my birthday. Maybe this year will rock.

I started on my new diet pill plan today. Let's hope this works.

I also decided that some point in the...
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I am the flame on the candle on top of the cake at the party for the end of the world.


I'm not dead, I'm only sleeping.

Each day carefully measured and calculated moments between doses.

blue pill, green pill, white pill, purple pill.


I bet I rattle when I walk.


I got a call about a job at my dad's friend's place. So now...
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somedays I really wish I could just start over.

I wonder if that is possible. I'm so sick of the way things are.


Isn't it supposed to get better? or was that some lie they told me in elementary school?


self loathing: just another service we offer.

oh yeah, my crazy sister called to make peace with me yesterday.

I still don't trust her as...
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I can't get that modest mouse song out of my head...


and I can't sleep.

I'm not unhappy, I just feel lost.

and bored. so bored.