hellcatjustine

The vanity of others runs counter to our taste only when it runs counter to our vanity.
- Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche



Up too late trying to get things done. Starting to get tired so I am trying to unwind.

I'm going back to work Thursday night. I am nervous and in a strange way excited. I remain cautiously optimistic.

I made up my mind to take action and maybe it isn't the action I would have chosen for now, but things are as they are.

I do not yet fully grok. Waiting will fill.

Doing nothing isn't producing the desired result, so now I'm going to do something.

I've been a really weird headspace lately. Adjusting to the meds. I must say I am more even these days, at least I don't flip out all the time anymore.

I don't want to think for awhile, I need a distraction.

Tomorrow I have to do the following:
1. Make dance CDs
2. Give myself a pedicure
3. Fix my corset
4. Organize my costumes
5. Go to costume lady's store
6. Stretch repeatedly
7. Play with makeup
8. Find and prepare my dance bag
9. Work on graphics for web site
10.Start building an online catalog

I'm secretly looking forward to number 2.

I wish I could just go to sleep. I know at this point I'm going to sleep late, but I don't want to sleep all day.

I leave you with a plea and my vanity.


Can you help me remember how to smile?