hellcatjustine

just another cigarette and I'll be on my way...


procrastination is an artform I must have mastered somewhere along the way.

we have a new kitten. His name is Squee. I was supposed to take him to the shelter today and I just couldn't do it. He is currently tormenting the other cats, but they seem to be tolerating him ok. only a minimum of hissing.

I'm such a sucker sometimes. But I love it.

Was supposed to hear from my dad today. asshole. he bought my sister a fucking car, and this isn't the first one, and he can't come off some money so I can buy groceries. fucker.

but, once again, I'm used to this from my father.

Been feeling sickly all day today. My stomach is not right. used to that too.

I need to pick up around here and then go give someone some money.

oh yeah, I can get stoned again. Go my team!

all this will never get done if I don't get up and do it.

later for y'all...



for the day:



I feel stupid - but I know it won't last for long
I've been guessing - I coulda been guessin' wrong
You don't know me now
I kinda thought that you should somehow
Does that whole mad season got ya down

I feel stupid but it's something that comes and goes
I've been changin' - think it's funny how now one knows
We don't talk about - the little things that we do without
When that whole mad season comes around

So why ya gotta stand there
Looking like the answer now
It seems to me - you'd come around
I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out - I'm lost and I'm hopeless
Bleeding and broken - though I've never spoken
I come undone - in this mad season

I feel stupid - but I think I been catchin' on
I feel ugly - but I know I still turn you on
You seem colder now, torn apart, angry, turned around
Will that whole mad season knock you down

So are you gonna stand there
Are you gonna help me out
You need to be together now - I need you now
Do you think you can cope
You figured me out - I'm lost and I'm hopeless
Bleeding and broken - though I've never spoken
I come undone - in this mad season

Now I'm cryin' - isn't that what you want
I'm tryin' to live my life on my own
But I won't
At times - I do believe I am strong
So someone tell me why, why, why
Do I, I, I feel stupid
And I came undone
And I came undone



edited to say: just got off the phone with daddy, he got me an interview with one of his country club friends on monday. now I am off to the club to meet this guy and see my father.

please, let this one work out.