How long till you break?
today was not so good. I got really sick right as I got to the store, and came home. I spent a few hours in bed, my stomach burning and finally not throwing up anymore.
I need to eat. I love food, what is the fucking problem here?
I called my daddy. I think he might help. I just feel so worthless about this. Isn't it high time I got to doing things on my own?
I am such a monumental fuckup. and yet, I am still here. I wonder what that says.
so, my boss at the store basically told me she couldn't afford to pay me 40 hours a week, and that I would probably need something else as well.
I'm Monstering two different versions of my resume. maybe I can just do something PT so I can still run the store, but I have to be able to get by.
a job I love versus a life I can afford....
too many goddamned decisions...
I read they are paying more for sets now...perhaps I ought to get off my ass and...wait, my ass, that is the problem.
well, hoofuckingrah for image editing software.
maybe I might do that soon. then at least I'd have a free account and I could get a little money.
I just don't know. my head hurts, my stomach hurts, I can't think of anything that I want to eat. I need to take meds again.
he'll be here soon.
I don't really deserve him, do I?
and then the phone rings...
later for y'all
**********
How many times have you been pushed around?
Was anybody there?
Does anybody care?
How many time have your friends let you down?
Was anybody there?
Did anybody stare?
How many time have your friends let you down?
Just open up your heart
Just open up your mind
How many times has your faith slipped away?
Well, is anybody safe?
Does anybody pray?
Oh, Life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we're alive
Oh, Life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we'll survive
How many days have you just slept away?
Is everybody high?
Is everyone afraid?
How many times have you wished you were strong?
Have they ever seen your heart?
Have they ever seen your pain?
Oh, Life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we're alive
Oh, Life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we'll survive
She gets high
She gets lost
She gets drowned by the cost
Twice a day, every week, not a lie
Oh, Life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we're alive
Oh, Life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we'll survive
All messed up, but we'll survive
today was not so good. I got really sick right as I got to the store, and came home. I spent a few hours in bed, my stomach burning and finally not throwing up anymore.
I need to eat. I love food, what is the fucking problem here?
I called my daddy. I think he might help. I just feel so worthless about this. Isn't it high time I got to doing things on my own?
I am such a monumental fuckup. and yet, I am still here. I wonder what that says.
so, my boss at the store basically told me she couldn't afford to pay me 40 hours a week, and that I would probably need something else as well.
I'm Monstering two different versions of my resume. maybe I can just do something PT so I can still run the store, but I have to be able to get by.
a job I love versus a life I can afford....
too many goddamned decisions...
I read they are paying more for sets now...perhaps I ought to get off my ass and...wait, my ass, that is the problem.
well, hoofuckingrah for image editing software.
maybe I might do that soon. then at least I'd have a free account and I could get a little money.
I just don't know. my head hurts, my stomach hurts, I can't think of anything that I want to eat. I need to take meds again.
he'll be here soon.
I don't really deserve him, do I?
and then the phone rings...
later for y'all
**********
How many times have you been pushed around?
Was anybody there?
Does anybody care?
How many time have your friends let you down?
Was anybody there?
Did anybody stare?
How many time have your friends let you down?
Just open up your heart
Just open up your mind
How many times has your faith slipped away?
Well, is anybody safe?
Does anybody pray?
Oh, Life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we're alive
Oh, Life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we'll survive
How many days have you just slept away?
Is everybody high?
Is everyone afraid?
How many times have you wished you were strong?
Have they ever seen your heart?
Have they ever seen your pain?
Oh, Life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we're alive
Oh, Life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we'll survive
She gets high
She gets lost
She gets drowned by the cost
Twice a day, every week, not a lie
Oh, Life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we're alive
Oh, Life is waiting for you
So messed up, but we'll survive
All messed up, but we'll survive
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I've only been here since December. This place is so huge isn't it? It's easy to miss people on here *lol*
Sorry about your set, but don't give up! There's an SG in there, I see it!