he's leaving me. he said he just can't do it right now
he signed a lease with his brother.
he said we might could do this again when we both get our heads straight.,
and all I want to do is bleed, die.
I havent stopped crying for hours.
my heart is broken in a thousand tiny pieces.
someone please put me out of my...
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he signed a lease with his brother.
he said we might could do this again when we both get our heads straight.,
and all I want to do is bleed, die.
I havent stopped crying for hours.
my heart is broken in a thousand tiny pieces.
someone please put me out of my...
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why can't I be normal?
why can't I be normal?
why can't I be normal?
why can't I be normal?
why can't I be normal?
why can't I be normal?
why can't I be normal?
why can't I be normal?
It's always like this now.
always two cigarettes and a phone call away from...
always two steps in the wrong direction...
where's my fucking happy...
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why can't I be normal?
why can't I be normal?
why can't I be normal?
why can't I be normal?
why can't I be normal?
why can't I be normal?
why can't I be normal?
It's always like this now.
always two cigarettes and a phone call away from...
always two steps in the wrong direction...
where's my fucking happy...
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chuck5317:
I'm in agreement with all these guys.
Normal sucks!
In the meantime, keep on swingin' HellCat!
Normal sucks!
In the meantime, keep on swingin' HellCat!
freeyourmind:
live for today as tomorow may never come. do what you want, feel how you want to feel, and dont let them mother fuckers gaet you down. 
that was a rather depressing entry. I think it's time for a new one.
so. I'm not quite over this thing yet, but I'm working on it. Mind over matter, right?
If I didn't mind, it wouldn't matter, I suppose.
Found out one of my little cousins is pregnant. Better her than me, I say.
Must be something in the water, I say.
Went to...
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so. I'm not quite over this thing yet, but I'm working on it. Mind over matter, right?
If I didn't mind, it wouldn't matter, I suppose.
Found out one of my little cousins is pregnant. Better her than me, I say.
Must be something in the water, I say.
Went to...
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the_scummiest:
Well did you get it, I hope so
the_scummiest:
i dont know
Lend me your ear and I'll tell you about the things I fear
I don't know where to begin. Perhaps not.
I wish I could just get past this feeling. I wish I could be more...more of anything.
I hate the way I feel, but I can't change it. I wish that I could. I want to be a sitcom mom, instead of a fuck...
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I don't know where to begin. Perhaps not.
I wish I could just get past this feeling. I wish I could be more...more of anything.
I hate the way I feel, but I can't change it. I wish that I could. I want to be a sitcom mom, instead of a fuck...
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nachthound:
The problem with "growing up" is simply that it doesn't mean that you don't feel the full range of emotions anymore it just means that you don't show them. Growing up is not all that it's cracked up to be, besides lots of actual responbsible grown ups don't have jobs right now.
For me? for the most part I love to be around you. It's when I'm not around that's no fun
Don't worry baby, things will get better and I will continue to make you feel better every night in the only way i know how as long as I am not too sore to move.
For me? for the most part I love to be around you. It's when I'm not around that's no fun
Don't worry baby, things will get better and I will continue to make you feel better every night in the only way i know how as long as I am not too sore to move.
loismustdie:
animal crossing... i'm such a nerd... i'm getting hooked again...
Lately...I'm not the only one...
so, a clean slate for today. Got a call this morning, they rescheduled my interview for Tuesday. so I officially have nothing to do today. I'm going to run a few bullshit errands and try not to cry my makeup off.
I got a good one in before I put it on.
Not sure what to do with myself at...
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so, a clean slate for today. Got a call this morning, they rescheduled my interview for Tuesday. so I officially have nothing to do today. I'm going to run a few bullshit errands and try not to cry my makeup off.
I got a good one in before I put it on.
Not sure what to do with myself at...
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elzig:
cheers
tegan:
i was just testing th epictures. i updated it now.
fuck the menstrual cycle. fuck it up it's fucking ass.
and why is it so fucking hot in here?
I have an interview with a different staffing company tomorrow. let us all hope that something good happens. I need something good to happen.
it rained all day today. I'm tired of the rain.
I have chocolate bars and midol. and a very small amount of...
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and why is it so fucking hot in here?
I have an interview with a different staffing company tomorrow. let us all hope that something good happens. I need something good to happen.
it rained all day today. I'm tired of the rain.
I have chocolate bars and midol. and a very small amount of...
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ash:
oh yeah I feel you, girl. I was just sick for 2 weeks .. now Im on my period. More pain. I hate it. periods annoy me!
tangledupinblue:
Sorry you are feeling so poorly angel.
As long as you are posting cheerful lyrics I can give you a personal favorite from long nights of smoking cigarettes and drinking whiskey in a basement with red lights on feeling forlorn and yet believing somehow you were being way cool by being that tortured.
I once loved a girl, her skin it was bronze.
With the innocence of a lamb, she was gentle like a fawn.
I courted her proudly but now she is gone,
Gone as the season she's taken.
Through young summer's breeze, I stole her away
From her mother and sister, though close did they stay.
Each one of them suffering from the failures of their day,
With strings of guilt they tried hard to guide us.
Of the two sisters, I loved the young.
With sensitive instincts, she was the creative one.
The constant scapegoat, she was easily undone
By the jealousy of others around her.
For her parasite sister, I had no respect,
Bound by her boredom, her pride to protect.
Countless visions of the other she'd reflect
As a crutch for her scenes and her society.
Myself, for what I did, I cannot be excused,
The changes I was going through can't even be used,
For the lies that I told her in hopes not to lose
The could-be dream-lover of my lifetime.
With unknown consciousness, I possessed in my grip
A magnificent mantelpiece, though its heart being chipped,
Noticing not that I'd already slipped
To a sin of love's false security.
From silhouetted anger to manufactured peace,
Answers of emptiness, voice vacancies,
Till the tombstones of damage read me no questions but, "Please,
What's wrong and what's exactly the matter?"
And so it did happen like it could have been foreseen,
The timeless explosion of fantasy's dream.
At the peak of the night, the king and the queen
Tumbled all down into pieces.
"The tragic figure!" her sister did shout,
"Leave her alone, God damn you, get out!"
And I in my armor, turning about
And nailing her to the ruins of her pettiness.
Beneath a bare light bulb the plaster did pound
Her sister and I in a screaming battleground.
And she in between, the victim of sound,
Soon shattered as a child 'neath her shadows.
All is gone, all is gone, admit it, take flight.
I gagged in contradiction tears blinding my sight.
My mind it was mangled, I ran into the night
Leaving all of love's ashes behind me.
The wind knocks my window, the room it is wet.
The words to say I'm sorry, I haven't found yet.
I think of her often and hope whoever she's met
Will be fully aware of how precious she is.
Ah, my friends from the prison, they ask unto me,
"How good, how good does it feel to be free?"
And I answer them most mysteriously,
"Are birds free from the chains of the skyway?"
Good times. The Trash man comes to cheer his friends up.
As long as you are posting cheerful lyrics I can give you a personal favorite from long nights of smoking cigarettes and drinking whiskey in a basement with red lights on feeling forlorn and yet believing somehow you were being way cool by being that tortured.
I once loved a girl, her skin it was bronze.
With the innocence of a lamb, she was gentle like a fawn.
I courted her proudly but now she is gone,
Gone as the season she's taken.
Through young summer's breeze, I stole her away
From her mother and sister, though close did they stay.
Each one of them suffering from the failures of their day,
With strings of guilt they tried hard to guide us.
Of the two sisters, I loved the young.
With sensitive instincts, she was the creative one.
The constant scapegoat, she was easily undone
By the jealousy of others around her.
For her parasite sister, I had no respect,
Bound by her boredom, her pride to protect.
Countless visions of the other she'd reflect
As a crutch for her scenes and her society.
Myself, for what I did, I cannot be excused,
The changes I was going through can't even be used,
For the lies that I told her in hopes not to lose
The could-be dream-lover of my lifetime.
With unknown consciousness, I possessed in my grip
A magnificent mantelpiece, though its heart being chipped,
Noticing not that I'd already slipped
To a sin of love's false security.
From silhouetted anger to manufactured peace,
Answers of emptiness, voice vacancies,
Till the tombstones of damage read me no questions but, "Please,
What's wrong and what's exactly the matter?"
And so it did happen like it could have been foreseen,
The timeless explosion of fantasy's dream.
At the peak of the night, the king and the queen
Tumbled all down into pieces.
"The tragic figure!" her sister did shout,
"Leave her alone, God damn you, get out!"
And I in my armor, turning about
And nailing her to the ruins of her pettiness.
Beneath a bare light bulb the plaster did pound
Her sister and I in a screaming battleground.
And she in between, the victim of sound,
Soon shattered as a child 'neath her shadows.
All is gone, all is gone, admit it, take flight.
I gagged in contradiction tears blinding my sight.
My mind it was mangled, I ran into the night
Leaving all of love's ashes behind me.
The wind knocks my window, the room it is wet.
The words to say I'm sorry, I haven't found yet.
I think of her often and hope whoever she's met
Will be fully aware of how precious she is.
Ah, my friends from the prison, they ask unto me,
"How good, how good does it feel to be free?"
And I answer them most mysteriously,
"Are birds free from the chains of the skyway?"
Good times. The Trash man comes to cheer his friends up.
All our times have come
Here but now they're gone
Today has been....I don't know. I slept in. I had strange horrible dreams. went and had the cable changed to my name. came back, had more horrble dreams. and no one here to comfort me when I woke up.
I know I shouldn't make trouble, I shouldn't cause a stir. but somehow, I always do....
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Here but now they're gone
Today has been....I don't know. I slept in. I had strange horrible dreams. went and had the cable changed to my name. came back, had more horrble dreams. and no one here to comfort me when I woke up.
I know I shouldn't make trouble, I shouldn't cause a stir. but somehow, I always do....
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chuck5317:
I got a fever! And the only prescription is for more COWBELL!!!!!!
I hope you're doing oka, you slacker . I hope I get to see you on the 22nd.
I hope you're doing oka, you slacker
. I hope I get to see you on the 22nd. 
witchhunter:
Young lady, what is this I hear about you not coming to the Ren fair???
I hate this fucking job. More than I can explain.
I worried myself sick yesterday, so I called in. But of course, I have to go today.
I don't think I have ever hated anything as much as I hate this.
I did make a decent headstart on finding another job.
I don't know what the fuck to do.
It's 7 am, and I am...
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I worried myself sick yesterday, so I called in. But of course, I have to go today.
I don't think I have ever hated anything as much as I hate this.
I did make a decent headstart on finding another job.
I don't know what the fuck to do.
It's 7 am, and I am...
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trucker_fiction:
good luck on the job hunt.... don't take any guff from these fucking swine.
-trucker-
-trucker-
chloe:
I actually sat through WAY WAY too much Van Helsing, because we kept thinking it was going to end. I was ready to leave the first ten minutes but I didn't want to be a party pooper. Now I wish I had spoken up!
I want you to notice...when I'm not around...
you're so fucking special.
yeah, I'm a creep. I'm a weirdo.
it's been that sort of day. I got up, took the man to work, and then over to my best girlie's house for cocktails starting at noon.
fighting off insecure jealous female tendancies. or trying to.
Last night we went to see Van Helsing. I wasn't...
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you're so fucking special.
yeah, I'm a creep. I'm a weirdo.
it's been that sort of day. I got up, took the man to work, and then over to my best girlie's house for cocktails starting at noon.
fighting off insecure jealous female tendancies. or trying to.
Last night we went to see Van Helsing. I wasn't...
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shmidol:
The low carb thing is going ok...just cheating a little these days. 
You are NOT fat or ugly!
Things are getting a little better for me now...thanks for noticing!!!
You are NOT fat or ugly!
Things are getting a little better for me now...thanks for noticing!!!
chuck5317:
I'm glad I made you smile.
So......... you gonna make it on the 22nd?
So......... you gonna make it on the 22nd?
the shit rolls downhill.
I don't know about my job. I have become what I hate, a fucking telemarketer.
Someone sent me an email about one of my websites, about throwing a swing thing here in Memphis. I can't even begin to think about how to go about this. time to make it happen.
I think I lost my dance partner. this makes me very...
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I don't know about my job. I have become what I hate, a fucking telemarketer.
Someone sent me an email about one of my websites, about throwing a swing thing here in Memphis. I can't even begin to think about how to go about this. time to make it happen.
I think I lost my dance partner. this makes me very...
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syd67:
damn, why so down? everyone has to do something. I'm not particularly fond of my job, but it pays my bills and gets me ahead. Have that man of yours take you away for a weekend.
amish_hitman:
the shit rolls downhill. = AMEN SISTA...
it sucks ass not to have a partner i don't have one anymore also ...7 yrs we danced together plus she was my wife..(lying c@!*t, b@!#h,)
I didn't notice any utters you hide them well...I think you're a classic beauty and all I have are your pics to judge that by so I can only imagine the greatness in person....behold the power of cheese...has nothing on you
please don't think of youself as useless...you bring a smile to my face...stay fiesty kitten and don't forget the grease.
A.
it sucks ass not to have a partner i don't have one anymore also ...7 yrs we danced together plus she was my wife..(lying c@!*t, b@!#h,)
I didn't notice any utters you hide them well...I think you're a classic beauty and all I have are your pics to judge that by so I can only imagine the greatness in person....behold the power of cheese...has nothing on you
please don't think of youself as useless...you bring a smile to my face...stay fiesty kitten and don't forget the grease.
A.
non comment leaving motherfuckers.
you know who you are.
so, I think I changed my mind and I am gonna stick out the new job for a bit. Maybe I'll be good at it. cause I'm good at everything else.
yeah, bet you can even hear me laughing on that one.
I wanna go dancing. I miss dancing. I guess my dance partner isn't talking...
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you know who you are.
so, I think I changed my mind and I am gonna stick out the new job for a bit. Maybe I'll be good at it. cause I'm good at everything else.
yeah, bet you can even hear me laughing on that one.
I wanna go dancing. I miss dancing. I guess my dance partner isn't talking...
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shmidol:
yes, please. A swift kick in the balls for the repairman sounds great!!!!
syd67:
s'up?
la de fucking da.
I think I hate my new job. I think most of my coworkers are a bunch of cokeheads. Fuck all that.
I think I lost two pounds.
I am going to be a surprise tonight. I cannot wait.
I want it all. Every single bit of it.
But the question is, can I have it?
I grok that maybe I can....
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I think I hate my new job. I think most of my coworkers are a bunch of cokeheads. Fuck all that.
I think I lost two pounds.
I am going to be a surprise tonight. I cannot wait.
I want it all. Every single bit of it.
But the question is, can I have it?
I grok that maybe I can....
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loismustdie:
you damn right...
syd67:
Everything and not much at all. Depends on where you look.
I hate work in general. There are so many things I need to do outside of work, but bills need a-payin'.
I shouldn't, but I think I'll have another smoke.
I hate work in general. There are so many things I need to do outside of work, but bills need a-payin'.
I shouldn't, but I think I'll have another smoke.
i don't mean to sound simplistic or cavalier...i just know you AND