hellabitch

As of late.


There are alot of things that have been bothering lately. I have this feeling of loneliness that I just simply cannot shake. I am surrounded by people everyday all day.. My house is never empty yet I still feel like I have noone. I sleep not only cause I am up all night due to my job but so I don't have to face the day.

I've been getting these horrible migraines the passed couple days and I have no idea where they are coming from. Lately I have been stressin and thinking about things that I normally would never stress off of.. I've been super sensitive to everything everyone says to me and I take it all to heart.That is totally not who I am. if anyone knows me well.. they know that I do not give a fuck about a man or what anyone has to say to me or about me.

I feel as of late I am super crushing on boys I shouldn't be...I am actually devolping feelings for boys that I usually would not give a fuck about. For the record everyone..I have no feelings for boys they are there to play with for the moment then they get thrown away.I do not need them for anything else but to keep me company and happy for the moment..but lately I have met a couple people that I would actually want to keep in touch with and not throw away. Guys that I would love to be with if they would have me and I cannot get off of my mind.lol that is totally not me and it's freaking me out!

I have everything I have ever wanted now. My life is just how I wanted it. Why is it that I feel like something is missing? I am still left wanting more.. What the hell is wrong with me.

I dunno what it is. I just feel like shutting everyone out of my life and never talkin to anyone again. turning myself into a hermit. This is not a cry for help.Simply a vent session cause I am out of my head at the moment. But if anyone can tell me what the hell is wrong with me I am open to anything anyone has to say.