hellabella

Hopefully certain things in my life that are causing a lot of stress and a lot of sleeplessness will be absolved. My relationshit is just that and it's ending. He's on his way here and will promptly be told to pack and stay with friends. My reasons are many, but the basic ones:
-workaholic
-never here
-never helps around the house
-never puts any money into anything so it's all me on $120/week
-comes home to sleep
-sex once in a while
-I don't deserve to be good for only fucking and a place to sleep
-sick of being treated like a child due to my eating disorder and told what to do "or else"
-SICK OF THE WHOLE THING
-(his) drinking relapses
-avoidance of me due to said relapses
-I don't know that I trust him anymore

Enough said. And it's been a hard and long thought out decision. I love him to pieces, was willing to marry him. When he came back from England I was told things would be different and that I would know I mattered and he would TAKE THE TIME to make sure I know that. It's been 4 months and I have hardly seen him (unless you count watching him sleep while I read, frustrated, and trying to figure shit out). I'm not willing to do this anymore. *shrug*