Yeah, still around. Just not in the best place. My husband left earrrly Wed. morning to go back home to England for 6 weeks. I had dates confused and thought he was leaving on the 13th, so I had not yet bought his Xmas gift. I am registering for school on the 12th and thought he would be here to give me encouragement to "try school again" that day. I have never seen myself as emotionally dependant upon anyone until now and it's upsetting to me, internally, to realize this about myself. I have worries, not by his own fault, that he will not return. I have some serious issues with fear of abaondonment (quite justified at that) and this is really testing those issues. In "real life" I'm not all that popular. So here I sit, alone, and very upset. I am not able to eat. Sedated as hell but can't sleep. And just rummaging around online to divert my attention. 