hellabella

What's a girl to do when she has no luggage (THANKS! Hurricane Ivan!) and needs to pack for vacation???? I'm going to my mother and telling her I either need to borrow a suitcase, or she will be taking me to south FL redneck-style... That's right kids, Wal-Mart bags. I think she may lend me some luggage. What's really funny is the we're staying one...
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Too Much, Too Late
By: L.B. Carter
(February 8, 2006)

So, you have returned.
You're back where it began;
to the place, in a rage, you burned;
to the place, in fear, from which you ran.

Now I am expected to forget all of that?
You're asking that I bury the past?
No hole's deep enough, my shotty diplomat,
to bury the carnage...
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Life is confusing and stressful at the time. I will update something decent as soon as I feel human.

My ex, the one who was handfasted to me and then left me, is back. Not in the country back, but in TOWN back. And he expects me to let him explain himself. Like anything he could tell me could make all the pain, lies, and secretiveness just vanish. I still don't know if I'm going to see him or not. When I found out...
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Starting to feel a bit better. My fever isn't as high. Still high, but not as bad. Not hurting as much. It's a relief. I slept all morning. Around 5:30am until 2:00pm, which I really needed.

Four jugs of juice and a gallon of tea later, I am not any better. Worse, might I add. I found some Robitussin at my parents house to take in hopes of getting up more mucus and thus being in a bit less pain. Nothing's really helping with the fever. I'm fairly tempted to take a cold bath.

Well, I'm sick. Looks like pneumonia. But fear not, for it's not cantageous. I get a type related to my asthma. Good news is, no one will catch it. Bad news is, it's not bacterial so I have to just wait it out in pain. I've missed 2 consecutive classes but my teacher said I'm far ahead enough that when I get back next Mon....
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Not a lot to say right now. I've been in a bad/low place emotionally after several events as of late, and no one has really been here for me. So I've been alone, in silence, doing my damnedest not to cry. It's always there though, ya know? A constant lump in my throat. I don't get depressed so much as down for a few hours,...
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Beautiful Disaster
(His Collection)
Lyrics By: L.B. Carter
(January 27, 2006)

Cold, alone, and blue
in the aftermath of you.
Frozen here, suspended in air,
with the knowledge that you don't care.

So few the kind words,
in the broken-hearted herds.
No shepherd to guide my way out.
No one tells me what it's about.

...why I must suffer you.

Carved carelessly of...
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I got my car back 2 days early. (((yayyyyy))) It looks good. I was hoping they would feel generous and fix the back bumper (someone hit and run... in my parking lot!) but they didn't feel generous. But hey, I have my baby back and if I feel restless at 1:00 in the morning I can now do my little trip down I10 one way...
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*cough* I like the balloon next to my name.

I got tapered 6 guages yesterday and got those in. (((I feel so damned accomplished.)))

Got an A on my first test.

Taking the cat to be neutered at 7:00.

Tired.