hedonisticnihil

So

the day after: okay.

So a crush was developing on this girl. (when boys became men, and girls become women? I digress.)
She seems pretty cool, is single. Seems like a barrel full of moneys, and is smart to boot. The problem I ask myself? I'd say "you ask" but that would be presumptious. She is kinda of single. She is involved in that sticky situation of tangled mess of still fucking the ex, and not knowing if she wants to stay or not stay. This happened to the last girl I liked as well. seems well funny really. One gets to call themselves single, and have this imagle of freedom of doing whatever the hell you want. But you also get a semi-support system, which always beats a non-support system, and you have a warm bed. Now theoritically one could fuck or suck, or spit with whomever they want, but they don't cause it would make that said person feel dirty. They would be unfaithful to someone they don't have to have faith with. c'est la vie.
well sorry for the rate, but it is my fucking journal.

j.

post script: It rings for 10 minutes it seems, or perhaps with all the cathedrals, they ring sequentual like some hidden pattern commenting on some universal question, we still remember the answer to, but nowt what was being asked.