hedonistfreak

Well, I know what's been giving me that odd feeling for the past few weeks. I found out today that I'm three weeks pregnant. OMG how come the local hospital couldn't just run that damn blood test and I'd have known last Monday. Now my Boss is bitch'n about a doctors note to return to work. OMG how the hell am I gonna spell this out? I mean I didn't want to say anything to anyone close to me cause it's bad luck right. Your not supposed to say anything until the 3rd month, just in case. I know this is gonna be a high risk pregnancy, since I have had issues getting pregnant to begin w/. I really don't want to call my Boss. She's a douche and used to be a nurse until her husband kicked the bucket and left her the restaurant. I might just quit since I'm supposed to be starting a new job in a couple weeks. Who knows my head is reeling so fast. So much to do and OMG I don't know how to explain these things.

Rob had told his Mom last Monday that I took one of those E. P. T. test and both said pregnant. I was spotting and all so she scared him into making me go to the freaking Hospital. Of course the hospital says no and sends me home but can't explain why I feel like shit. I have been sleeping more, nauseous, and cramping, little spotting to. All they did was say no and check in a week. Should have forced them to run the blood test, kicking myself now. Wonder how Joann is gonna feel about this. Rob's already gone thru these feelings before and both girls decided to terminate the pregnancy. All I know is she better not say shit like that to me. I'm not gonna kill this life growing inside me. I need to stop smoking and fast!!!!!! My head hurts.

Okay enough rambling I'll sign off now and go eat.