heckler

After much prodding & poking & blatant bullying by my beloved Marvel I've finally decided to write a new blog.

But what to write.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

I'm kinda all talked out right now. I;m not a talkative person at the best of times but yesterday was one of those amazing days. The 2 of us talked for 9 hours
Including a 2 1/2 hour phone conversation..& I HATE using the phone..with a passion. I often won;;t answer the thing when it rings. I'll ignore it check for a message after its stopped

Its been a bit of an up & down time recently. I've had some great days, where everything has been perfect & squeeee filled. I've had some days where I've just wanted to curl up in my bed all day, pull the covers over my head & stay there. I've had some scary days that I hope I don't repeat again in a long time. I've had some stressful days.
I've had days where I've felt all of those things & more. Those are truly exhausting.
I've made plans
I've changed plans
I've thought "fuck the plans....who needs them anyway"
I've reached conclusions
I've had some revelations
I've decided things
I've changed my mind
I've worried about some ridiculous things
I've not worried about some things I probably should have
I've been lost
I've never felt like I've belonged somewhere more
I've been filled with fear
I've been filled with hope
so much hope

But everyday when I get to see her face, when I get to hear her voice, read her words, its perfect
Every time
Nothing else matters