heavenandhell

thanks for all the comments on my angel, we both really appreciated it.

*sighs*

i have a dilemma. in my last entry i said i was going to call my new angel tattoo 'jenny' after the daughter i lost, but i have someone else who i call angel and she expects it to be called 'kate' after her.

the thing is, kate is no ordinary person to me. she literally saved me from committing suicide, which is why i call her my angel. she came into my life as i was settling my affairs and writing a suicide note. somehow she managed to talk me around and make me realise that i have too much to live for. the thing that makes her even more special, is that she managed this even though she is a 16 year old girl.

i don't want to offend her, but on the other hand i want a permanent reminder of jenny. i'm not sure what to do.

you're probably reading this and thinking "it's just a damn tattoo", and yes, it is. but to me it's symbolic, that's why i wanted an angel.

i have a problem with my concience now. i won't be meeting kate for a couple of years, when she comes over from australia to see me and her dad, so i could just hope she forgets about it. but knowing my luck, she won't and one of the children may pipe up and contradict her if she mentions it.

so i guess what i'm asking is, if anyone can suggest a way around this? my brain is clouded because of the emotional attatchment to them both, so i can't think what to do.

take care.



i re-read this and realise it sounds stupid, one is dead and the other is thousands of miles away. but thats kinda how my mind and my life works.