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I suppose I had something more interesting to say now... but I don't feel like it anymore.

Is any of this fucking worth the time? Fuck no. Someone should just put me out of my fucking misery. That. is. all.

dear brain,

why must you turn to mooooosh when I need you most?! Why? Why have you forsaken me again????

Brain-fry.

I feel a smidge worse than death.

I want my bed. And a big human teddy bear.

Instead I get..... THE CUBICLE OF BRAIN-FRY. Boo-diddly-urns.

X and O.

adieu.

awwwwwwww fuck. It's gonna be a long night... I hope I have enough cigarettes....

My co-worker just called... she's not coming in... she got in a car accident
.. she's okay, but I think the car's totalled... and she sounded really shaken. The effect of this on me is twofold: 1- I only talked to her for a few seconds... and I'm not entirely sure...
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It's not even 9am...why the shit am I awake.

Curse being a woman... causing me pain... so I can't sleep.

I am the biggest jerk ever. Hopefully Zarina and her roomate forgive me. Like I said... you get the best housewarming present ever. I don't know what it is yet... but it's gonna be GRAND. Oh and I can pay you back for the rope if you want. Since, it's kinda my fault that you had to buy it. (well not kinda...it IS my fault)....
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ugh... there are many holes in my memory of last night... holes I'm sure are better left unfilled.

Now instead of emo, I feel hungover. Hmmmmm, I post a lot about being hungover don't I? You must all think I'm a crazy alcoholic... I'm not I swear.

Anyway, lesson here is... computers + drinking = BAD. Stay away from your computer when you're drinking. Far...
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I'm having a moment... please... allow me this moment...

cast the pearls aside of a simple life of need
come into my life forever
the crumbled cities stand as known
of the sights you have been shown
of the hurt you call your own
love is suicide

the empty bodies stand at rest
casualties of their own flesh
afflicted by their dispossession
but no bodies...
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all right. Fuck everyone... I'm going gay barring with my sister. I'm gonna drink my sorrows away with lots of martinis and bad dance music. And maybe Zarina's working... I can go say hi.

I thought my emo-ness was gone but it's not... what the hell??! I have alump in my throat and I just feel like crying. But I refuse. I'm going to go...
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bored bored bored.

and drikning alone.

i hate people. (edit): I don't hate people anymore... I just spent an hour whooping fucking ass on PS2.

Now, I go watch reality bites again and cry myself to sleep.

ha. ha.

people suck. i give up. i'm going to stay home tonight and watch movies and drink beers with my dad. Yes, I am a party animal... wooOoOooOOOO.

Oh and I'm gonna clean my room. And maybe, just maybe I will clear off my harddrives. Oh and if I leave work early, I'll stop off at Best Buy and get some sort of spyware removal thing...
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