heathavoid

sorry for the no update, the no comments... missing people's birthdays.. I'm a horrible SG friend. I will comment soon, from my new place when my comp is all hooked up. For now, I'm posting my last LiveJournal entry.

I dunno, I'm procrastinating packing.. not because I don't want to move, believe me, I SO want to move.. like NOW... but because I'm so drained and looking at all the stuff in my room frustrates me and makes me want to cry.

The last couple of weeks have been an emotional fucking rollercoaster, and I think bith my brain and my spirit are broken.

My grandma's dying. My Uncle is in detox somewhere. My mom is a fucking mess. My job has been stressful. I kind of feel seperated from everyone I know... all my friends and even my family. I'm not alone, but I'm lonely most of the time. I'm struggling with my mind all the time, and I'm sick of it. Why can't I be normal? Why can't I be happy? Have I done something awful, or am I so horrible that I deserve this kind of life? I don't know anymore. What I do know is that I don't want to cry anymore.

What I also know is that I'm wasting time on here bitching and moaning when I should be packing.

Talk to you all in a few days.