heathavoid

it's oyster fork time...


...i feel like ass. And my shift is only half over. I've done pretty much all the school work that I possibly can do from here... I've emailed everyone I know I think... I've played bookworm for an eternity... I even looked for jobs online. I need a new job. I'm getting so fed up with everything... I keep thinking, man if I just quit school everything would be so much better. But I can't quit school... because then I'd just be proving myself right -- I can't finish anything I start, I can't succeed at anything, I'm not good for anything, I can't follow through with anything.

I'm trying so hard not to lose it... but I'm sick of having no sleep, no money, no time for myself, no time for my friends, no organization in my life, no concrete details of what's happening... I'm sick of feeling utterly and completely lost all the time.

I have 7 months left of school. I can make it through 7 months I think. I hope. Either I make it through school and graduate and find a job... or I live in a fucking box... a zenith box apparently.

all hail legless wonder.

I'm sad that I updated and my lists aren't here anymore. I should make a new list about something... but I dunno what kinda list I wanna make.

Someone come and entertain me.

me home. me listening to NIN - The perfect drug on repeat. me cool.