Thursday Nov 04, 2004

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ever feel like you just really need closure on something... but for some reason... you just can't get it?

I feel like shit, I'm tired of feeling like this.

what in the fuck do i do?
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attheyoshinoya:
have some time to yourself.. that's what you need. a day to think.

i don't know what i can say to help, i just hope you feel better.

did you manage to catch the season premiere of the O.C.? surely that's a good cheerer-upper.

bok

have a chicken
kelland:
I feel like closure is the one thing in life I cannot live without. Well, live comfortably.

Thursday Nov 04, 2004

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A Perfect Circle's version of Lennon's Imagine is fantastic. It makes me cry. A lot.

On an unrelated issue... even though I've listened to this song 4732198074328901 times (it's the song I'm making the video for this weekend, I'm still not sick of it... it's fantastic.

Oh you seem resentful of me
Just like always
Cant seem to find a way to break me
Just...
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kelland:
I do enjoy that version of "Imagine" as well.
infinity:
i shot some random pics, maybe youd like to see em...

Wednesday Nov 03, 2004

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ok... I still feel terrible... I'm totally ont he verge of a breakdown.

I'm feeling a lot better about the progress of the many projects I'm working on though so that's good.

The masochist in me needed some pain today... you know for some relief from all this stress and craziness... so I decided to stretch my ears from 6ga to 4ga. Well, man was...
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pollywog:
take care of yourself!
try to get a nap in today, that always helps me!
kiss
infinity:
time to upgauge again eh?


everything will work out fine. i promise.

Tuesday Nov 02, 2004

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I have not felt this horrible in a very long time.

I just want to disappear.

frown frown
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infinity:
im not crying for you.


i offer you some ♥ and kiss



hope you get to a better place soon. really soon.


kiss
ultimatelewser:
Yeah. That's about all I can do about it. Thanks.

Sunday Oct 31, 2004

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icantplayguitar:
how did i miss your journal.
zarina:
I was about to, but then well.... I'll call you and tell ya wink

Saturday Oct 30, 2004

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day two of infant invasion over.

in the last 8 days I've had approximately 6 hours of sleep.

I'm covered in 'blood', my eyes are bloodshot, I can't think straight, my entire body aches & I need a massage BADLY, I'm so tired that I can't sleep... making movies is fucking fun.

And, the shoot is only half over. I have to be up in...
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06909xl:
I finally figured out the perfect square date..

Im such an emo kid today....
Whats wrong with me frown
I want to make you happy...
And take out on lots of square dates...
I need to fix my phone and call you

I'll leave you alone now...

kiss
theseadog:
Happuy Halloween!!!

16 hour days rock! The great thing about them when your getting paid, is that you don't have time to spend the money, and you can take a week off after it's over. Hang in there. smile

Thursday Oct 28, 2004

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darkartist81:
mmmm...Beer..

"No money and no woman makes Josh go something something....

Go crazy?

DON'T MIND IF I DO!!!!"

Love that episode of the Simpsons... even if I did change the line. biggrin kiss
anakin5163:
love the pics
i'm just off to buy you some more beer wink

Tuesday Oct 26, 2004

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I'm sad.

I'm sad because no matter what I do, it's just not good enough.

I'm sad because I'm so tired but I can't sleep.

I'm sad because I can't let go of things that I have no control over.

I'm sad because I don't get to celebrate hallowe'en this year.

I'm sad because my heart aches all the time.

I'm sad (and incredibly lame)...
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miho:
Don't be sad, and if I ever see you write that you are not good enough I am going to hop on a plane and come kick your ass. kiss
showala:
without sadness how can yout tell when you're truely happy?

Tuesday Oct 26, 2004

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I skipped class again today... too much work to do.

I drove ALL THE WAY DOWNTOWN -- to city hall -- for those of you who have seen Resident Evil 2... it's those weird curvy buildings they blow up in the movie... anyhoo I went there to pick up permits, only to find out that they weren't gonna be ready until 3pm. Boo-fucking-urns to that...
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infinity:
youre being productive and thats good. sometimes a little discipline is needed thats all.


nice - nice teeth = cute love
kelland:
Whoopsies on skipping class. Again.

I want to do that, seriously.

I am so damn tired.

Why the hell am I here instead of bed?

True addiction, I spose.

Monday Oct 25, 2004

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drive by update:

I'm still going crazy... I'm not going to drop out... I have new, restored faith in myself and in my ability to get this shit done. It just means burning the candle at both ends until christmas. I will not be giving up caffeine anytime soon it seems.

Anyhoo, Giselle and I came to an artistic revelation about my music video today....
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theseadog:
Oh thank god! I was soooo worried you were gonna give up caffeine! Damn the medication! Caffeine is where its at!

Good tohear you're not givng up on schol/yourself. To be honest, I'm even happier about that than I am about the caffeine. Not to diminish from the caffeine, though. Just happy your gonna keep on keepin on.

ARRR!!! Hold Fast! ARRR!!!
zsanda:
Caffine definately a good thing, an insomniac like myself couldnt get through the day without it .......BOOOO TO DECAF THE CAFFINE SHAKES ARE WWHAT WE WANT!!!!!

Sunday Oct 24, 2004

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it's oyster fork time...


...i feel like ass. And my shift is only half over. I've done pretty much all the school work that I possibly can do from here... I've emailed everyone I know I think... I've played bookworm for an eternity... I even looked for jobs online. I need a new job. I'm getting so fed up with everything... I keep thinking, man...
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theseadog:
I can't spell at all. I think it all goes back to the whole being stupid thing. When in doubt, blame your intelligence. biggrin
attheyoshinoya:
7 months is nothing... you'll be fine smile

and... stay in school tongue

have a great week..

bok < it really does have no legs

Saturday Oct 23, 2004

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since I'm an unoriginal copycat... I'm stealing kelland's idea.

stuff that makes me happy

1- that crazy dead leaves smell... mmmmmm
2- watermelon scented ANYTHING. lip balm, deoderant, lotion, body spray... whatever, it doesn't matter.
3- crazy thunder storms
4- driving down an open highway with the windows down, singing at the top of my lungs
5- friends that save my ass
6- PEZ....
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kelland:
Yay for us lamewads! We need a club or something.

I sometimes feel like I'm never good enough. Sigh le sigh.

I don't know why I just said that.

I keep listening to Incubus today. It's an Incubusy day.
kelland:
S.C.I.E.C.E.

You spelled Incubus wrong, Weirdo McGee.

Joan Jett sounds cool.

I haven't really heard much from Avenged Sevenfold. They were at Warped Tour when I went during this summer. But I was there mainly for Coheed and Brazil. Eh.
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