** WARNING **
This will be TMI for some folks, particularly for men.
So don't say I didn't warn ye!
SPOILERS! (Click to view)
So I've been taking The Pill for the last 4 years, not only to avoid pregnancy, but because for my entire life since I hit adolescence, I've had very very VERY painful cycles. Since I've been on the pill, my periods are next to nothing, to the point where I basically don't know that it's even happening, To go from absolute agony and inability to function to basically no change is... a MIRACLE.
That having been said, I was a dork this past weekend and forgot to pick up my Rx. Dipshit! ;-) And then I forgot again and again.... and it to the point of well fuck it, I'll just have a normal 28 days and experience the whole thing, just to remind myself.
First, there's no chance I will be having sex in the next 30 days unless P comes back thru here on his way back from Europe. HIGHLY unlikely since we were just in Mexico together! (but god that would be nice. He is the best I've ever had all around - damn him for living in Seattle!)
So am I inviting pain and misery? Ummm no. I'm finding there is something in my Inherent Natural "Goddess" femininity that is lost or at least diminished. In just over 10 days, I am feeling things I haven't in a while. I am OVULATING today - I am embracing that crampy feeling.
Why am I sharing? I honestly don't care if anyone reads this. I"m just writing it down to get it out of my system.
Just want to be reminded that I am a woman and that this is PART of me.
