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Ok...Here's the low-down.
I get to the point of my story at the end!

School, although boring, is going very well. I have to drive a bit in the mornings, but it gives me a chance to catch up with current events and new music on XM.

Work is also awesome. I work for my uncle doing something that I love. The money is good; job secruity is certain, and a couple of my friends from OfficeMax, my second job, are applying soon. This will probably be the job that I stick with through college and hopefully once I graduate.

My apartment is perfect for me. I finally got all moved and new furniture. It's not done yet, but little by little it is getting there. The location is right where I want to be...near downtown but far enough away to provide some since of suburbia.

My friends are great and really help me through rough times and I enjoy hanging with them through the good times. My romance life is fine. I discovered about three years ago that I hate ignorant people and that plain and simple "I just dont give a shit what people think about me anymore, as long as I am happy with myself" And that attitude right there has been the best thing I have ever lived by.

So, these are the basics of life...right? This has always been good for me. Up until now; these are the things that I have leaned on for support. All these things should provide me with complete happiness! Am I wrong?

I miss traveling so much. More specific; I miss Ireland. I miss my family, my friends, my home away from home. I want so bad to drop everything I have done for myself and move back. I want to go back to the simplicity of of the life there.

But I don't think it's just that that's bringing me down. I feel alone even when I'm not. So this might be strange for a guy to talk about, but I really have a hard time finding girls that I show the slightest bit of interest in. I have dated so many girls, many of which I just wanted to be friends with after one date. Others turned into long term relationships lasting one year, two year, and a three year commited relationship. These end up being the best times of my life. Why do these relationships not last? I know the answer to that question, but when I look at all of the relationships as a whole, I wonder if the rest of my life is going to be the same. A girl here, a girl there. I know I am young, but sometimes I wish for a little more stability.

So...Is it mental depression or situational depression? My friends are saying I should start working out alot. They think it will halp kill time and might help lift my attitude up a little more. All my friends tell me and would tell anyone that I would be the last peson that they would ever think was depressed, but I think I am.

Anyways, that is all I have right now. Talk to you all later. Hope everyone is doing well.