healthyparanoid

i've come to realize that I am completely bored with life. There is nothing that excits me, or drives me to do anything. really - i see no real reason to get out of bed. i still do, cause i have "obligations" and i'm the type of person that is not one to take care of those things.
i have a job - i can't wait to end.
i go to school - take classes that sometimes are fun, but don't interest me.
i do love portland - that's why i'm getting an apartment to live there next summer [crosses fingers - never know until you are moved in]
now, before you say, "man, you're just depressed"
guess what - you are right. I've been diagnosed with depression and dyslexia (last year). I went on meds for a while - didn't like em, they don't change a thing.
I mean - I'm happy at times - but honestly, I don't really have anything to get up in the morning and say, "i can't wait to do this".
Nothing really challenges me or makes enjoy myself enough to want to do any work. life is boring.
i keep telling myself to wait - i'll find my happiness - i'm just stuck in a rut i suppose; but it's not really helping
yea
in the end - its probably because i feel like i'm just sitting around - waiting for some great big sign to hit me in the freakin head