So, yea - I almost died...
I was driving on the highway - it was a little rainy/snow - nothing you'd think you'd have a problem with.
I was on my way home - not too far from my destination; when I happened upon a truck goin wayyyyy under the speed limit.
So - I went to pass it on the left (3 lanes) when I noticed that the left lane was quite icey - so I down shifted and went to hit the breaks to get behind the truck again - when
BAM - skidding - then I started to spin spin spin.
Unfortunately I did not win...
So I tried to turn into the turn, tap the brakes yada yada yada - no use - just spinning.
Then - I stop. No more movement - just still.
So - I pause - take inventory - then make sure I'm okay.
I'm fine - so i get out to see exactly how bad the situation is: I'm in a ditch - with my bumper on a fence - not too bad.
I had to dig my tire out - then tried to drive - but no use. $125 and a tow later - I was out and on my way home.
However - here's the sad part:
Usually when you are in a life or death situation something flashes through your mind - like you realize someone you love or you will think about - you think about how much you have to live for...
I come to realize this: I was ready to die - if not embracing it.
You know how "Jack" (Edward Norton) in Fight Club prays for a plane crash - I sort of felt the same way = embracing my mortallity and the end.
wtf?
I was driving on the highway - it was a little rainy/snow - nothing you'd think you'd have a problem with.
I was on my way home - not too far from my destination; when I happened upon a truck goin wayyyyy under the speed limit.
So - I went to pass it on the left (3 lanes) when I noticed that the left lane was quite icey - so I down shifted and went to hit the breaks to get behind the truck again - when
BAM - skidding - then I started to spin spin spin.
Unfortunately I did not win...
So I tried to turn into the turn, tap the brakes yada yada yada - no use - just spinning.
Then - I stop. No more movement - just still.
So - I pause - take inventory - then make sure I'm okay.
I'm fine - so i get out to see exactly how bad the situation is: I'm in a ditch - with my bumper on a fence - not too bad.
I had to dig my tire out - then tried to drive - but no use. $125 and a tow later - I was out and on my way home.
However - here's the sad part:
Usually when you are in a life or death situation something flashes through your mind - like you realize someone you love or you will think about - you think about how much you have to live for...
I come to realize this: I was ready to die - if not embracing it.
You know how "Jack" (Edward Norton) in Fight Club prays for a plane crash - I sort of felt the same way = embracing my mortallity and the end.
wtf?
We all make mistakes, sure, and we all have things we wish we could do or wish we could have done better. But if you can get to a place where you feel ready to die without a thought about what you ought to do before you die, I'd say bully for you.
...unless of course you saw the oncoming death as an escape from trouble and regret, well then...yes, wtf?
More once the answer is given.